you can’t imagine how tired I am right now. Or maybe you can. I definitely shouldn’t be blogging and editing pictures right now but rather have a sower, prepare my lunch and go to sleep. Tomorrow is my first fitting of all the pieces we’ve sown to date in uni, and I need to make final completions on one piece. But anyway, I am well prepared for the next day most nights and tonight I feel like just not thinking about tomorrow.
What I want to save here, on my blog, today, is how grateful, honestly thankful I am for my studies. No matter how stressful it can get, I am happy to be at a place that stimulates my spirit to be active and my mind to get creative. It can be a daily struggly but ultimately I am glad to do what I am doing. And also to be surrounded by a fair amount of kind, lovely, cooperative and funny people! This way I almost don’t mind spending 9 to 10 hours a day in Uni, as it is mostly practical and easy-going 🙂
how was your weekend? To start with mine… well, we had a fckng blast!!! Firstly, on Thursday I got the info that all my classes are cancelled for Friday – so instead of uni from 10-6 pm I had the whole day off and could help getting te flat set for the big party! As you may know we had our ‘house warming’-party and were expecting a loooot of friends to come! So we had huge buffet of vegan food, hot and cold, sweet and hearty, a dream-frankly. Anna and Elsa, wo told me more than once that they are to busy to join the party, eventually surprised me and boosted my happiness-level from 100 to 250! Weeell I had a feeling that something like that would happen but in the end you never know and I was just so super super excited to have them around!
On Saturday a comparatively small group of people stayed and we ad a nice long walk in the rain, ten went to the cinema (did you know that there is a new movie from J.K.Rowling that is like a resumption of the Harry Potter movies?? I liked it a lot, quite fantastic but very nice 🙂 After that we had a look at another house party in a ridicilously big flatshare, tey had a proper boiler room in there 😀 So we danced to good old german techno just as if we haven’t had partied all night the night before 😀
We just had such a good time and I am gratefdul for everyone who was part of it! Hasta lueeegooo ❤
It’s been long that I felt THAT exited (and a bit anxious) about an upcoming event like I did yesterday. I really didn’t know how to feel about: my first day at Uni.
Luckily, before going to bed I realized that it all really isn’t that bad and that there is no need to take this topic too seriously!
Therefore I just chilled and the moment I entered the building (and met a really nice girl from Vietnam who studies the same as me) I stopped being nervous about the big unknown and it felt kinda familiar already. It’s really nothing more or different than school… Anyway, the whole day was super exhausting (loooooots of new input) but now I am actually looking forward to tomorrow! In case you didn’t know (no problem :P): I just started studying fashion design in Leipzig/Germany 🙂
So we’ll see how it goes but I already love my new flat and feel home and love to welcome guests and friends and and and 😛
Just another wonderful day in the capital with a girl without a label. I just realized again that even the label “friend” constrains the relationship with the expectations and prototypes society imposes on us. Besides kindness, just act like you feel towards a person. You esteem me? Spent a little of your precious time with me as a present. Help me out when I need support. Jump for joy with me when life is sweet. Not because you are my friend but because you enjoy us being together 🙂
Life got upgraded yesterday; I bought myself a new lens, which is barely larger than the lid of a marmalade jar! It’s the Panasonic Lumix 20mm/f1.7 Pancake (did I hear pancake??) lens which is a prime lens and, obviously, extremely light-sensitive with it’s wide aperture!
I got it through eBay-kleinanzeigen.de which I currently am obsessed with! It’s so light that I am able to carry my fairly big Lumix GH3 in my purse all day! A dream!
So yesterday my sister and I went to a furniture shop to get me a mattress and pillow, then we wanted to collect a chair (via eBay again) but it didn’t fit my need. So we went to my new flatshare and put up my bed, had chinese take-away and cider and just chilled on the floor in that empty flat… real cozy, honestly 😀
The next days are all about moving in and moving stuff, so… weird. Anytime I moved in the last 2 years (abroad) I didn’t have too much stuff and no furniture. But I am so so so lucky and grateful to have those glorious people around who help me day in and out! Like in general… I am fricking thankful for my family and friends. They give me so much and deserve all my love ❤
Puh, I guess I can say without any exaggeration that I’ve been super lazy blogging!
But not because I didn’t have any ideas or feel like it, no… I’ve been actually super busy doing other things. I know, this is not typically me. But the last few weeks were so packed with all that stuff that is leading me into the life of a student. New flat, new flatmates, worries and excitement towards the future! It’s funny playing this society game haha! I mean how hilarious is life? 7 months ago I didn’t waste a single thought on the option of studying 😀 So now I’ll take things as they are and give my best to stay conscious and always remember the true values of life!
Like moments like this. I said it before and I’ll say it again:
My closest friends and family can always come to mine. Babe, I’m honest. Looking forward to the day that I come home and bae is laying in my bed (with some vegan baked goods haha or mashed potatoes and peas). This also goes out to my sweetest sister, as well as my cousin. Just to count a few 🙂
I am back from an amazing and surprising weekend in Poland where we celebrated the birthday of good friend. After two days among 60 people I finally got to know a woman who vibes with me on a deep level. She’s a reiki healer and on her personal spiritual journey as well and we dived deep into topics like chakra healing, protection against other peoples negative energy (wear hats!), twin flames, self love etc!
One thing that is pretty present in my life right now is that I have to learn to be courageous enough to do what I am afraid of, because
You know your way by looking at the things you fear!
Btw, are you experiencing a rough time right know with more stress or bad luck than usual? You should know that its the MERCURY RETROGRADE in virgo right now, bringing chaos with it, and we need to be really aware and conscious and double check everything! It’s a great time to rethink actions or to finish something. DO NOT plan or make big actions, sign contracts, make agreements (not even verbal), start anything new. It is more likely to not last and it may change very quickly. The main period terminates on the 22.09.
So this is why I still didn’t sign a contract for a flat and why I’ll wait till the mercury is through the most intense phase of its retrograde!
Also, what my friend just told me, it is a good time to get rid of stuff and tidy out. Supposedly it is easier to part with stuff you don’t need any longer, so this is what I did on friday and will do today as well 🙂
It’s always nice because I find stuff I kinda forgot about and which I thought would no longer suit me, like this grey skirt I am wearing in the picture above. But then I start mixing it up with other items and find myself in an outfit I really like! 🙂
I am officially accepted for FASHION DESIGN STUDIES in Leipzig. Whuuuaaa. I spent 3 super intense weeks on creating my art portfolio, because I went to the advanced arts course in high school indeed, yet I haven’t ever collected my art or suchlike. I started from zero and really transformed my usual everyday life into an artsy non-stop period of learning and creating. My parents went on holidays in those exact 3 weeks so I had the flat for myself, and trust me, I needed it. Paper, pencils, watercolors, charcoal, markers, fabric, thread etc everywhere! Eventually I managed to put together 16 cardboards with diverse pieces of art, from sketches to figurines, watercolor portraits, charcoal nude drawings and photographs of my personally designed and sewn clothes to collages. There is one thing I learned and now KNOW from experience, which is:
If you are forced to do something and keep on track (at pressure), you can become good at things you haven’t ever done before. It’s not about what you THINK you can or can’t do; because actually you can, if you only started!
But, to be fair, its way easier to keep on track if you do it with a purpose and a deadline. I think I would probably never have started drawing if it wasn’t for that application. After some tries I would get disappointed and just skip it. And this is the gap you need to pass…
So I went to the interview with my portfolio, thinking this would be so easy as its a private university and they will take everyone they can get. Way off the mark!! This guy there asked a lot of complex questions, also technical stuff that I’ve never heard off (like computer programs for cutting patterns etc), then how I would do this and that, how I would react in that situation or what young fashion designers can apply for after studies except from normal design jobs. In the end he evaluated me as a positively straight freak who is both self confident and modest. Additionally, I am, according to him, really openminded and internationally interested, which is good. Soo I got accepted straight away and it took a load off my mind!
The days after I fell into a sort of a limbo because I had nothing to do anymore? And I doubted if the way was the right for me…. well, my days were filled again quite quickly as I am looking for a flat atm. Busy stuff, so glad when its finally done. But yeah, the feeling of uncertainty stayed and I even doubted my competence to do that study. But today I feel better about it, also because my mom always says that I should just start and I can skip everytime hahah 😀 Because obviously I am just scared of that new thing and its always good to do the things your mind tells you you can’t (no stupid things please).
Ohh my this was a long post. If you read it all: thank you so much, i love you 😀 If not, never mind, I mainly do it for myself 🙂 Now enjoy some of the pictures I took of Lara wearing my clothes! xxx
Yesterday, when I stood unter the shower, I thought about the feeling of being in love and how the whole world changes, how some things get more meaningful and others don’t. How it is so magical that for everyone else the world seems normal but for you everything sparkles.
And then I realized that this sort of feeling isn’t something I have to wait for and that depends on acceptance by others, no, I can just create it myself. Because love equals self love, attention equals self-awareness,
and it is still your choice how you want to perceive the world 🙂
How was your weekend? Mine was both adventurous and calm, lemme tell you:
yesterday some of the frisbee players, including me, met up to arrange an “Ultimate Frisbee with Refugees” game. In small groups we went to 3 different refugee camps and collected the ones who were interested… this took us a while since we had to wait like 40 min until everyone was ready 😀 But never mind, in the meantime we threw some discs with the kids who were already there 🙂
Together with the kids and teenagers the other groups came with, we were a huge group of over 20 people of every age and 3-4 different languages! It was my first experience with refugees like eye-to-eye and it really made me so happy. This was one of those things I would normally skip just because its unknown to me, BUT since I want to work on my openness towards new experiences this was totally the right thing to do. So I was happy to see how much fun they had, how well we got along and how much we trusted each other! I felt like a child care worker (from a kindergarten) who made an excursion with a play school group 😀 And once again I realized how we are all the same, that there is no difference and that I love giving those kids something that maybe makes their new home a bit more pleasant and homely. So all of this happened in a 3 hours session with direct sunlight and 30 + degrees celsius. I was sooooo done afterwards! Actually my sister and I wanted to do something nice that evening but all I could do was to lay in bed with eyes closed and not doing anything because I had such a bad headache!
So the rest of the weekend I spent in bed and in the kitchen, watching movies with my sister and making pancake-coated pineapples slices 😀 Now I want to prepare some blog posts as I am off to Berlin on Wednesday and to Poland on Sunday. First trip this summer haha! But big travels are yet to come 😉
So excited to cuddle with my favorite Mrs. Bean after 3 weeks that feel like 2 months.
Gosh, how I miss this alien. Living in England with you. Weird, but it was such an intense time (remember Broomhill).