Tell me, what do you see? Is it a wave of pinkish water that foams, is it crazy clouds, what is it?
Even if it may seem obvious for you, your perception may differ tremendously from that of another person. Our mind plays tricks, so does our “reality”, and the matrix we are forced into. IF we choose to stay asleep and not to wake up and question the things we perceive.
Anyway, today I was on my way to the tram. I had to cross a street and stood there waiting for the traffic light to turn green. I was quite in a rush and thought:”This should really turn green now, I NEED to go. But I’ll just trust that fate is leading me to where I should go at the right time.”
I looked at the traffic light for the cars. It was red. “Weird, it’s been red for a while now, shouldn’t mine turn green?” I wondered. After a minute or so it hit me; “Bugger me! it IS green! It was all the time! Oh my gosh…”-I laughed so hard about myself -” oh my goooosh that is crazy! I was SEING, BELIEVING that there was the red light. It was so certain to me! (What the heck did the person in the car think, seeing me, standing in front of the green traffic light, waiting on edge XD).”
Guys, I left the matrix for a second. Something I’d learned for 2 decades suddenly lost its value. It wasn’t THE TRUTH anymore. And, once again, this makes clear how strongly we create our own reality and how we act upon things because we BELIEVE something to be real (through believe systems we adopt as kids).
So stay awake guys! Open you eyes (I will look at traffic lights more consciously now haha).
Hello you guys and happy new year! I am so lucky that I can say that I’ve had the best NYE of my life so far! I spent it at Elsa’s place with her family, Anna and Lotti! I didn’t even know the family personally before and neither did they know me, but we got along really frickin’ well and I felt super comfortable and homely 🙂 Anyways, I’ve got something else to share with you, an experience I made.
ABOUT THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN BELIEFS AND WISDOM AND HOW YOU CAN SHIFT YOUR EMOTIONS
In the night from the 1st to the 2nd of january, which in turn I spent in Annas bed, I woke up at 4am. Only about 2 hours after the two of us had a really deep conversation about emotions and independent, unattached love etc, which really revealed some new perspectives. Now, when I woke up, I felt uneasy and thought it is because I had to wee quite badly. So I went to the bathroom and within a moment I realised, that my menstrual pain just started and will get even worse. When I get this it’ll usually keep me awake in pain for a long time, especially if I don’t take pain killers (which I only ever took once). Anyway, I went back to bed and twisted and cramped my body to make it somehow better. But then I realised something:
Firstly, I’ve once read something about how powerful and important the time of the menstruation is (for the woman)
Secondly, that I only had 3 more hours till I had to get up and if I didn’t do anything, it would keep me awake in terrible pain
and finally, that I can do something about my feeling and that the light of pure consiousness can transform darkness to light.
So, what I did was (it helped, that there was no other option anyway) to get fully into the sensation of pain. To feel it as much as I could, to pay all my attention to it and further “breathing into” my lower belly. With all my attention to it I certainly felt the pain ultimately but it wasn’t worse than the feeling whilst trying to stifle/suppress it. Just like 90 seconds later I felt relief and immediately fell asleep.
When I woke up at 7 am and got ready I totally forgot about what happened at night. Only at one moment a thougt came to my mind saying “Hey, the pain is gone, you feel well! What usually lasted for hours and even the whole next day just dissolved!” Perhaps you can empathize with me about how happy I was, not only about feeling GOOD, but primarily about the wisdom I earned.
Because there is a difference between reading about stuff (techniques,meditation,tips,…..) and
actually doing it and making own experiences. With an personal experience you KNOW something, which again equals wisdom. Reading and believing is not knowing.
I do believe a lot, because it makes sense to me, but there are only a few of the spiritual things I really know. Today I am a bit wiser and can say: if you bring awareness to a matter, you can transform it. And if you don’t like an feeling/emotion, you can shift it, but firstly you have to feel it to the fullest, dig into it, giving full power to it for a short moment rather than letting it survive and hurt you subtly for a very long time.
This is it, my friends, my first enlightening realisation of 2017. Hopefully, when needed, this will be helpful for you.
BRING AWARENESS TO YOUR PAIN AND WATCH IT DISSOLVING INTO LIGHT!
I want a strong root chakra. I want to be so in love with life, for no specific reason, that nothing can really shatter me and that every nice circumstance or situation/happening is just a pleasant bonus. I want to be grounded, balanced, full of trust and (self)love.
I contain nature within myself. I am nature. Pure abundance.
A group of my old friends from school and I went to Poland and the city of Danzig (Gdansk) to do what we did in Prague 2 years earlier: coming together to camp, have fun, drink, laugh, cook, chill etc. This time our campground was almost directly at the beach (5 mins walking) and we had a huge “base camp” framed by a DDR caravan , VW T5, TIPI tent, a hammock, ale-benches and a tripod holding a huge kettle/cauldron. I didn’t take a camera this year because it just nicer sometimes not to think of taking pictures all the time, but these two here, which I took in Prague, pretty much show the situation!
Well, after 7 days of heavy rain to baking heat we made it back and I went straight to Anna’s. It took us less than an hour and we were diving deeper than my head could process that quickly! We talked about the anunaki “gods” and how there is no such thing like a setting sun, because it’s just us who “turn our backs to the sun”. The sun itself shines day and night so basically there’s absolutely no need for TIME as in DAYTIME and NIGHTTIME. The NOW finally made perfect sense because in the past I used to think:
“Ok if time does not exist and time counting is manmade, why do we have day and night?” But then it hit me and I actually felt dizzy, because the simple fact that the earth is circling doesn’t mean that we need the concept of time.
Howsoever, this is kinda hard to explain. What we have is now and that is more than enough 🙂 Kiss!
Yesterday, when I stood unter the shower, I thought about the feeling of being in love and how the whole world changes, how some things get more meaningful and others don’t. How it is so magical that for everyone else the world seems normal but for you everything sparkles.
And then I realized that this sort of feeling isn’t something I have to wait for and that depends on acceptance by others, no, I can just create it myself. Because love equals self love, attention equals self-awareness,
and it is still your choice how you want to perceive the world 🙂
Night and day. Shadow and light. So beautifully complementing.
I have a truth I experienced myself that I can tell you:
that thing that annoyed you isn’t even real or important. It’s your ego that feels offended and your “pain-body” that holds onto it. After I become present again, I realize that there isn’t even a problem. Life’s still a big funny game and all is well, I can chill 🙂
Eckhard Tolle describes:
The pain-body has a dormant stage and an active stage. Periodically it becomes activated, and when it does, it seeks more suffering to feed on. If you are not absolutely present, it takes over your mind and feeds on negative thinking as well as negative experiences such as drama in relationships. This is how it has been perpetuating itself throughout human history. Another way of describing the pain-body is this: the addiction to unhappiness.
Right, now that we know how unnecessary it is, how do we get rid of it?
It cannot feed on positive thoughts. When the pain-body no longer runs the internal dialogue of our compulsive thinking, we become aware of it directly. We feel the emotion in our body, and so we bring awareness to it, the light of consciousness.
Let me introduce you to my current comfort zone : my life. And you know what’s about to happen? Growth. Because whats happening right know is getting me nowhere and this has to and will be changed (now).
More focus. On my “worldly” goals and, above all, my spiritual ones. I know I could get everything I want (doesn’t have to be materialistic but involves life qualities such as the feeling of freedom and abundance and unconditional love) within like 10 days IF I ONLY STARTED! Ok, end of speech.
Friday, with a touch of spontaneity, I took the coach and train to my old hometown and visited Anna. She thought a lot of things changed and the distance may be a barrier for us BUT OF COURSE (and luckily) we just vibed so strong together again, felt the love and talked about feelings, goals, thoughts etc. I am so grateful for our connection. Just to be understood. And to have the same idea of what life really means. We went to Bora Bora a.k.a the lake Müritz and went swimming just about the same time that the sun set. “Looks good!” she joked as I tried to heave myself unto the bathing jetty, which was quite high. “SO take a picture!!” I screamed back before we were bursting with laughter, me still pressing my body on that landing, not able to push it up fully 😀
An honest, authentic, funny, relaxing, spontaneous, yummy, super warm, summery weekend filled with love. So grateful 🙂
I felt so much “nothing” while being in that forest. Sweet, energetic, positive, pure, clean, inspirational, fulfilling nothing. Someone put his/her hammock in between the trees. Kids built tipis out of dead wood. I sat there , being.
This is the most inspiring season to go into forests. Believe me, magic happens there 🙂
it certainly would, if I wouldn’t stop it from doing so first.I can get really nervous before doing something that I can’t completely control in terms of “what will happen/how will it be/can I do this/…” This happens the most when I am about to try something new. Music classes, group events, or – most frequent – sports. Whilst writing this I kinda realize that it could just be appointments in general which stress me out… mh. Anyways, I’ve always been a sporty kid. Not always by choice, but it played a huge role in my life all along. Strangely, it happens that I am super nervous before a training… even if I know what to expect! But it’s just the mind which tells me “Argh, you must plan, you have to schedule that and then you’re not even sure what will happen – whereas at home (aka comfort zone) everythings so safe and relaxed!”
Same thing today when Lotte asked me to come along to her frisbee class tonight. Whuat, today?? I was afraid of the circumstances… concerned about if I felt good enough, the weather conditions, my timing… however, I went. And it was great. Exhaustingly great and fricking cold.
Not that it was simply freezing, it started to rain and then soft hail, wich really hurt our frozen hands! But we continued, dried a little, got soaked by the rain again and finally ended the training with contentment happiness! I definitely learned (once again)that I can approach new things more relaxed and laid back, because everything will work out fine 🙂
It’s a while ago that I felt SUCH GRATITUDE for my home and a hot shower, wow! I know guys, it’s uncomfortable to admit, but the comfort zone is so much cozier after leaving it (and then coming back) 🙂 Next we watched Game of Thrones and now I am super done, in a positive way! Looking forward to being productive tomorrow! Night! ❤
It takes courage to do the first action, everything that follows is your reward! The universe takes care of everything and gives you all that is good – if you only take the first step!