Accidentally exiting the Matrix

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Tell me, what do you see? Is it a wave of  pinkish water that foams, is it crazy clouds, what is it?

Even if it may seem obvious for you, your perception may differ tremendously from that of another person. Our mind plays tricks, so does our “reality”, and the matrix we are forced into. IF we choose to stay asleep and not to wake up and question the things we perceive.

Anyway, today I was on my way to the tram. I had to cross a street and stood there waiting for the traffic light to turn green. I was quite in a rush and thought:”This should really turn green now, I NEED to go. But I’ll just trust that fate is leading me to where I should go at the right time.”
I looked at the traffic light for the cars. It was red. “Weird, it’s been red for a while now, shouldn’t mine turn green?” I wondered. After a minute or so it hit me; “Bugger me! it IS green! It was all the time! Oh my gosh…”-I laughed so hard about myself -” oh my goooosh that is crazy! I was SEING, BELIEVING that there was the red light. It was so certain to me! (What the heck did the person in the car think, seeing me, standing in front of the green traffic light, waiting on edge  XD).”

Guys, I left the matrix for a second. Something I’d learned for 2 decades suddenly lost its value. It wasn’t THE TRUTH anymore. And, once again, this makes clear how strongly we create our own reality and how we act upon things because we BELIEVE something to be real (through believe systems we adopt as kids).

So stay awake guys! Open you eyes (I will look at traffic lights more consciously now haha).

L O V E ❤

How I Master My Pain (Light Of Awareness)

Hello you guys and happy new year! I am so lucky that I can say that I’ve had the best NYE of my life so far! I spent it at Elsa’s place with her family, Anna and Lotti! I didn’t even know the family personally before and neither did they know me, but we got along really frickin’ well and I felt super comfortable and homely 🙂 Anyways, I’ve got something else to share with you, an experience I made.

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ABOUT THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN BELIEFS AND WISDOM AND HOW YOU CAN SHIFT YOUR EMOTIONS

In the night from the 1st to the 2nd of january, which in turn I spent in Annas bed, I woke up at 4am. Only about 2 hours after the two of us had a really deep conversation about emotions and independent, unattached love etc, which really revealed some new perspectives. Now, when I woke up, I felt uneasy and thought it is because I had to wee quite badly. So I went to the bathroom and within a moment I realised, that my menstrual pain just started and will get even worse. When I get this it’ll usually keep me awake in pain for a long time, especially if I don’t take pain killers (which I only ever took once). Anyway, I went back to bed and twisted and cramped my body to make it somehow better. But then I realised something:

Firstly, I’ve once read something about how powerful and important the time of the menstruation is (for the woman)

Secondly, that I only had 3 more hours till I had to get up and if I didn’t do anything, it would keep me awake in terrible pain

and finally, that I can do something about my feeling and that the light of pure consiousness can transform darkness to light.

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So, what I did was (it helped, that there was no other option anyway) to get fully into the sensation of pain. To feel it as much as I could, to pay all my attention to it and further “breathing into” my lower belly. With all my attention to it I certainly felt the pain ultimately but it wasn’t worse than the feeling whilst trying to stifle/suppress it. Just like 90 seconds later I felt relief and immediately fell asleep.

When I woke up at 7 am and got ready I totally forgot about what happened at night. Only at one moment a thougt came to my mind saying “Hey, the pain is gone, you feel well! What usually lasted for hours and even the whole next day just dissolved!” Perhaps you can empathize with me about how happy I was, not only about feeling GOOD, but primarily about the wisdom I earned.

Because there is a difference between reading about stuff (techniques,meditation,tips,…..) and

actually doing it and making own experiences. With an personal experience you KNOW something, which again equals wisdom. Reading and believing is not knowing.

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I do believe a lot, because it makes sense to me, but there are only a few  of the spiritual things I really know. Today I am a bit wiser and can say: if you bring awareness to a matter, you can transform it. And if you don’t like an feeling/emotion, you can shift it, but firstly you have to feel it to the fullest, dig into it, giving full power to it for a short moment rather than letting it survive and hurt you subtly for a very long time.

This is it, my friends, my first enlightening realisation of 2017. Hopefully, when needed, this will be helpful for you.

BRING AWARENESS TO YOUR PAIN AND WATCH IT DISSOLVING INTO LIGHT!

Much love, Jule ❤

My roots

 

I want a strong root chakra. I want to be so in love with life, for no specific reason, that nothing can really shatter me and that every nice circumstance or situation/happening is just a pleasant bonus. I want to be grounded, balanced, full of trust and (self)love.

I contain nature within myself. I am nature. Pure abundance.

 

Busy living life

Puh, I guess I can say without any exaggeration that I’ve been super lazy blogging!

But not because I didn’t have any ideas or feel like it, no… I’ve been actually super busy doing other things. I know, this is not typically me. But the last few weeks were so packed with all that stuff that is leading me into the life of a student. New flat, new flatmates, worries and excitement towards the future! It’s funny playing this society game haha! I mean how hilarious is life? 7 months ago I didn’t waste a single thought on the option of studying 😀 So now I’ll take things as they are and give my best to stay conscious and always remember the true values of life!

Like moments like this. I said it before and I’ll say it again:

My closest friends and family can always come to mine. Babe, I’m honest. Looking forward to the day that I come home and bae is laying in my bed (with some vegan baked goods haha or mashed potatoes and peas). This also goes out to my sweetest sister, as well as my cousin. Just to count a few 🙂

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Leipzig Wildpark – September 2016

About cruising on earth

I’m back from Danzig!

A group of my old friends from school and I went to Poland and the city of Danzig (Gdansk) to do what we did in Prague 2 years earlier: coming together to camp, have fun, drink, laugh, cook, chill etc. This time our campground was almost directly at the beach (5 mins walking) and we had a huge “base camp” framed by a DDR caravan , VW T5, TIPI tent, a hammock, ale-benches and a tripod holding a huge kettle/cauldron. I didn’t take a camera this year because it just nicer sometimes not to think of taking pictures all the time, but these two here, which I took in Prague, pretty much show the situation!

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Well, after 7 days of heavy rain to baking heat we made it back and I went straight to Anna’s. It took us less than an hour and we were diving deeper than my head could process that quickly! We talked about the anunaki “gods” and how there is no such thing like a setting sun, because it’s just us who “turn our backs to the sun”. The sun itself shines day and night so basically there’s absolutely no need for TIME as in DAYTIME and NIGHTTIME. The NOW finally made perfect sense because in the past I used to think:

“Ok if time does not exist and time counting is manmade, why do we have day and night?” But then it hit me and I actually felt dizzy, because the simple fact that the earth is circling doesn’t mean that we need the concept of time.

Howsoever, this is kinda hard to explain.  What we have is now and that is more than enough 🙂 Kiss!

It does make sense

Oh these ups and downs! I could already tell this morning that I’d feel weird tonight.

Got up at 6:30 am and started the day slowly, all relaxed 🙂 Then, to get an overall impression, I watched videos about fashion design portfolios (those you need to apply for an academy or uni). I felt overwhelmed because what I saw was so different to my expectations… so different to what I saw myself capable of doing! So – trap of comparison.

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Anyhow, I couldn’t see the passion in the things I do anymore. It was there once, for sure, but the question is: what is my motivation? Getting all perfectly prepared for my future and sacrificing the present? No way! But that was the case… Why am I speaking in past tenses? Because I asked my soul. It just came over me and I was in a dialogue with my soul.

“What is it that you love? I know you know it and therefore I know it deep down, but what is it? Is it something I have to experience yet?” I asked my soul.

The answer came as a feeling. Truly, I encourage you to do the same. If you really seek an answer, you’ll receive ist.

“You already do the things you love. You just can’t enjoy it anymore because you do it for a future event… not for yourself. If the future wouldn’t matter and there were no plans, how would you have spent your day? What is it that you enjoy?”

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And I realised… it is all there. Simply the worries about the future toke up the place of my joy. I mean it is okay to have an idea of the future… but you still live NOW and everything you do, be it meaningful or not, you should do because you enjoy it RIGHT NOW. I actually love spending my day teaching myself drawing, sewing, reading, studying, diving deep. And its so much more fun if you are fully present. Get my drift?

There was a time when i didn’t know what I loved at all. Now I know a few things. This is great. Excuse me, I’m off reading ❤

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P.S.: Just realized how divinely things turn out when you don’t plan. Just floating. Peace xx

California Heat


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They are actually shoulder-length 😉

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It’s always warm in CA. Obviously the reason I felt the need to cut my hair 🙂 HAHA! Here you have the result of Annas amazing work …. most affordable hair cut ever, my pure presence was enough 🙂 This, by the way, is a good base for any kind of relationship (in my opinion)- gratefulness for the other ones existence and vice versa. Your presence is a gift as well, so you are taking and giving at the same time 🙂

Anyway, here we go, first time Jule is seen with relatively short hair since her childhood! Weird fact: when I was at Annas they always fell so nicely (compare last post) and at home, also with my mood dropping (it’s getting better but I was a bit down the last days), they just looked boring. Happy mind – happy hair? Happy attitude – good image of self? However, I am happy with it and ready for the beach!! See you Cali ❤

This pain is not you

Night and day. Shadow and light. So beautifully complementing.

I have a truth I experienced myself that I can tell you:

that thing that annoyed you isn’t even real or important. It’s your ego that feels offended and your “pain-body” that holds onto it. After I become present again, I realize that there isn’t even a problem. Life’s still a big funny game and all is well, I can chill 🙂

Eckhard Tolle describes:

The pain-body has a dormant stage and an active stage. Periodically it becomes activated, and when it does, it seeks more suffering to feed on. If you are not absolutely present, it takes over your mind and feeds on negative thinking as well as negative experiences such as drama in relationships. This is how it has been perpetuating itself throughout human history. Another way of describing the pain-body is this: the addiction to unhappiness.

Right, now that we know how unnecessary it is, how do we get rid of it?

It cannot feed on positive thoughts. When the pain-body no longer runs the internal dialogue of our compulsive thinking, we become aware of it directly. We feel the emotion in our body, and so we bring awareness to it, the light of consciousness.

Source: eckharttolle.com

It’s a gaaaame friends, let’s bring light into it and sunbathe with joy 🙂

(Also, read “THE POWER OF NOW” o “A NEW EARTH”. Consciousness is EVERYTHING and can be learned! It changed my life 🙂 )

My comfort zone

_1250066Let me introduce you to my current comfort zone : my life. And you know what’s about to happen? Growth. Because whats happening right know is getting me nowhere and this has to and will be changed (now).

More focus. On my “worldly” goals and, above all, my spiritual ones. I know I could get everything I want (doesn’t have to be materialistic but involves life qualities such as the feeling of freedom and abundance and unconditional love) within like 10 days IF I ONLY STARTED! Ok, end of speech.

Friday, with a touch of spontaneity, I took the coach and train to my old hometown and visited Anna. She thought a lot of things changed and the distance may be a barrier for us BUT OF COURSE (and luckily) we just vibed so strong together again, felt the love and talked about feelings, goals, thoughts etc. I am so grateful for our connection. Just to be understood. And to have the same idea of what life really means. We went to Bora Bora a.k.a the lake Müritz and went swimming just about the same time that the sun set. “Looks good!” she joked as I tried to heave myself unto the  bathing jetty, which was quite high. “SO take a picture!!” I screamed back before we were bursting with laughter, me still pressing my body on that landing, not able to push it up fully 😀

An honest, authentic, funny, relaxing, spontaneous, yummy, super warm, summery weekend filled with love. So grateful 🙂

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Bae, our car and I after one of our most adventurous days so far. Eating unbelievably tasty vegan selfmade pizza and fruits, pancakes and what else – watching the atlantic ocean by night.

 

Break the habit

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When I am completely calm my soul speaks to me.

There is a small line between being in the flow of doing what you love with a free spirit and  sliding into a non-inspiring habit. The key is consciousness. Everything we do consciously will always be exciting, adventurous and new. All is unique. Habits can mock boredom. But  this is your life, queen and king. This is not boring but pure bliss! Remember what you love doing – and start. Break the habit. Do it with the excitement you had when you first started. Your love is waiting for you ❤