Trust issues

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“iTrust”, Jule M, 2016

Trust, to me, is a key element for a balanced life. Trust is what slows down stressful moments. When I am worrying about an specific outcome, time, my ability, the future, health, relationships, STUFF – I remember to trust. Because if I know one thing, then it is that everything, in the end, fits together and makes perfect sense! There is a reason to all that is in life. Having trust doesn’t mean to stop caring about the events in your life, as in “it doesn’t matter what I do, life will happen as it will anyway”. No, take the strings and make it what you want it to be, but relax when you are in a situation where you can’t assume control anymore. Have faith, that you’re exactly  where you’re supposed to be. For instance, when I rush in the morning and have to wait for train, already anticipating that I’ll be late, I can either stress out internally or just “let it be”. Because there is no point in overcalculating here, I am where I am and if I trust, things will work out (and then, the  prof is late as well or no one noticed that I was late etc). Just as we have the possibility to create our own life we have the option to let life guide us now and then 🙂

I do trust that the universe has my back and that is has grand intentions for my existence here on earth, so why not just chill? xx Jule

It does make sense

Oh these ups and downs! I could already tell this morning that I’d feel weird tonight.

Got up at 6:30 am and started the day slowly, all relaxed 🙂 Then, to get an overall impression, I watched videos about fashion design portfolios (those you need to apply for an academy or uni). I felt overwhelmed because what I saw was so different to my expectations… so different to what I saw myself capable of doing! So – trap of comparison.

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Anyhow, I couldn’t see the passion in the things I do anymore. It was there once, for sure, but the question is: what is my motivation? Getting all perfectly prepared for my future and sacrificing the present? No way! But that was the case… Why am I speaking in past tenses? Because I asked my soul. It just came over me and I was in a dialogue with my soul.

“What is it that you love? I know you know it and therefore I know it deep down, but what is it? Is it something I have to experience yet?” I asked my soul.

The answer came as a feeling. Truly, I encourage you to do the same. If you really seek an answer, you’ll receive ist.

“You already do the things you love. You just can’t enjoy it anymore because you do it for a future event… not for yourself. If the future wouldn’t matter and there were no plans, how would you have spent your day? What is it that you enjoy?”

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And I realised… it is all there. Simply the worries about the future toke up the place of my joy. I mean it is okay to have an idea of the future… but you still live NOW and everything you do, be it meaningful or not, you should do because you enjoy it RIGHT NOW. I actually love spending my day teaching myself drawing, sewing, reading, studying, diving deep. And its so much more fun if you are fully present. Get my drift?

There was a time when i didn’t know what I loved at all. Now I know a few things. This is great. Excuse me, I’m off reading ❤

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P.S.: Just realized how divinely things turn out when you don’t plan. Just floating. Peace xx

How to get real

Take a minute and think about that:

LOOSE YOUR MIND AND COME TO YOUR SENSES

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it really can make a difference, don’t you think?

xx, Jules