Tell me, what do you see? Is it a wave of pinkish water that foams, is it crazy clouds, what is it?
Even if it may seem obvious for you, your perception may differ tremendously from that of another person. Our mind plays tricks, so does our “reality”, and the matrix we are forced into. IF we choose to stay asleep and not to wake up and question the things we perceive.
Anyway, today I was on my way to the tram. I had to cross a street and stood there waiting for the traffic light to turn green. I was quite in a rush and thought:”This should really turn green now, I NEED to go. But I’ll just trust that fate is leading me to where I should go at the right time.”
I looked at the traffic light for the cars. It was red. “Weird, it’s been red for a while now, shouldn’t mine turn green?” I wondered. After a minute or so it hit me; “Bugger me! it IS green! It was all the time! Oh my gosh…”-I laughed so hard about myself -” oh my goooosh that is crazy! I was SEING, BELIEVING that there was the red light. It was so certain to me! (What the heck did the person in the car think, seeing me, standing in front of the green traffic light, waiting on edge XD).”
Guys, I left the matrix for a second. Something I’d learned for 2 decades suddenly lost its value. It wasn’t THE TRUTH anymore. And, once again, this makes clear how strongly we create our own reality and how we act upon things because we BELIEVE something to be real (through believe systems we adopt as kids).
So stay awake guys! Open you eyes (I will look at traffic lights more consciously now haha).
Holidays started for me today, I’ll tell you more about that later…
What is it that I am doing these days? Well, I basically chill in my sisters flat, her housemates (and her ofc) just as the whole vibe in there is just so relaxing and nice! Also, Lara and I went to the lake yesterday which is approximately a 30 min bike ride, it was super hot but also so stormy haha, not that cozy. Today I went to the frisbee training the first time since the start of august, I was seriously too busy to go the last 2 weeks.. wow! So yeah.. now I’ve got one week left in Leipzig before heading to Berlin, meeting my lovely Anna and then driving to Danzig with the old squad from school times 😛 September is still completely free, I am having some huge ideas and am hoping to realize them (travel-wise) with one special babe.
Alright, I’ve got a lot to share with you guys. Lets start with these pictures my friend Lotte took of me when we were having our birthday party… She is quite talented, isn’t she?
Let me introduce you to my current comfort zone : my life. And you know what’s about to happen? Growth. Because whats happening right know is getting me nowhere and this has to and will be changed (now).
More focus. On my “worldly” goals and, above all, my spiritual ones. I know I could get everything I want (doesn’t have to be materialistic but involves life qualities such as the feeling of freedom and abundance and unconditional love) within like 10 days IF I ONLY STARTED! Ok, end of speech.
Friday, with a touch of spontaneity, I took the coach and train to my old hometown and visited Anna. She thought a lot of things changed and the distance may be a barrier for us BUT OF COURSE (and luckily) we just vibed so strong together again, felt the love and talked about feelings, goals, thoughts etc. I am so grateful for our connection. Just to be understood. And to have the same idea of what life really means. We went to Bora Bora a.k.a the lake Müritz and went swimming just about the same time that the sun set. “Looks good!” she joked as I tried to heave myself unto the bathing jetty, which was quite high. “SO take a picture!!” I screamed back before we were bursting with laughter, me still pressing my body on that landing, not able to push it up fully 😀
An honest, authentic, funny, relaxing, spontaneous, yummy, super warm, summery weekend filled with love. So grateful 🙂