How I Master My Pain (Light Of Awareness)

Hello you guys and happy new year! I am so lucky that I can say that I’ve had the best NYE of my life so far! I spent it at Elsa’s place with her family, Anna and Lotti! I didn’t even know the family personally before and neither did they know me, but we got along really frickin’ well and I felt super comfortable and homely 🙂 Anyways, I’ve got something else to share with you, an experience I made.

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ABOUT THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN BELIEFS AND WISDOM AND HOW YOU CAN SHIFT YOUR EMOTIONS

In the night from the 1st to the 2nd of january, which in turn I spent in Annas bed, I woke up at 4am. Only about 2 hours after the two of us had a really deep conversation about emotions and independent, unattached love etc, which really revealed some new perspectives. Now, when I woke up, I felt uneasy and thought it is because I had to wee quite badly. So I went to the bathroom and within a moment I realised, that my menstrual pain just started and will get even worse. When I get this it’ll usually keep me awake in pain for a long time, especially if I don’t take pain killers (which I only ever took once). Anyway, I went back to bed and twisted and cramped my body to make it somehow better. But then I realised something:

Firstly, I’ve once read something about how powerful and important the time of the menstruation is (for the woman)

Secondly, that I only had 3 more hours till I had to get up and if I didn’t do anything, it would keep me awake in terrible pain

and finally, that I can do something about my feeling and that the light of pure consiousness can transform darkness to light.

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So, what I did was (it helped, that there was no other option anyway) to get fully into the sensation of pain. To feel it as much as I could, to pay all my attention to it and further “breathing into” my lower belly. With all my attention to it I certainly felt the pain ultimately but it wasn’t worse than the feeling whilst trying to stifle/suppress it. Just like 90 seconds later I felt relief and immediately fell asleep.

When I woke up at 7 am and got ready I totally forgot about what happened at night. Only at one moment a thougt came to my mind saying “Hey, the pain is gone, you feel well! What usually lasted for hours and even the whole next day just dissolved!” Perhaps you can empathize with me about how happy I was, not only about feeling GOOD, but primarily about the wisdom I earned.

Because there is a difference between reading about stuff (techniques,meditation,tips,…..) and

actually doing it and making own experiences. With an personal experience you KNOW something, which again equals wisdom. Reading and believing is not knowing.

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I do believe a lot, because it makes sense to me, but there are only a few  of the spiritual things I really know. Today I am a bit wiser and can say: if you bring awareness to a matter, you can transform it. And if you don’t like an feeling/emotion, you can shift it, but firstly you have to feel it to the fullest, dig into it, giving full power to it for a short moment rather than letting it survive and hurt you subtly for a very long time.

This is it, my friends, my first enlightening realisation of 2017. Hopefully, when needed, this will be helpful for you.

BRING AWARENESS TO YOUR PAIN AND WATCH IT DISSOLVING INTO LIGHT!

Much love, Jule ❤

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This weekend was insane!

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Do I need to explain? Just feel it, admit  it and live it 🙂

Hello Queens and Princes,

how was your weekend? To start with mine… well, we had a fckng blast!!! Firstly, on Thursday I got the info that all my classes are cancelled for Friday –  so instead of uni from 10-6 pm I had the whole day off and could help getting te flat set for the big party! As you may know we had our ‘house warming’-party and were expecting a loooot of friends to come! So we had huge buffet of vegan food, hot and cold, sweet and hearty, a dream-frankly. Anna and Elsa, wo told me more than once that they are to busy to join the party, eventually surprised me and boosted my happiness-level from 100 to 250! Weeell I had a feeling that something like that would happen but in the end you never know and I was just so super super excited to have them around!

On Saturday a comparatively small group of people stayed and we ad a nice long walk in the rain, ten went to the cinema (did you know that there is a new movie from J.K.Rowling that is like a resumption of the Harry Potter movies?? I liked it a lot, quite fantastic but very nice 🙂 After that we had a look at another house party in a ridicilously big flatshare, tey had a proper boiler room in there 😀 So we danced to good old german techno just as if we haven’t had partied all night the night before 😀

We just had such a good time and I am gratefdul for everyone who was part of it! Hasta lueeegooo ❤

My roots

 

I want a strong root chakra. I want to be so in love with life, for no specific reason, that nothing can really shatter me and that every nice circumstance or situation/happening is just a pleasant bonus. I want to be grounded, balanced, full of trust and (self)love.

I contain nature within myself. I am nature. Pure abundance.

 

Travel update

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Hey you guys!

Just a quick update: I spent a fuckin lovely weekend with Anna here in Leipzig and the Elbe Sandstone Mountains (for the Germans out there: yes, that is supposed to be the right translation 😛 ), it was a very very active one and we left our comfort zones multiple times! I’ll upload pictures and reports later, right now I am not feeling so well, catched a cold :/ Also I gotta go make rosemary potato wedges 😀

Speak to you later xxxx

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Pictures I took of my blue overall which kinda looks like work clothing, you know, those blue onesies workers wear a at a construction site 😀 It used to have two basic straps over the shoulders but one went off so I made a neck holder top out of it! I love this one, from the first day I bought it in England, but it seems like I’ve grown or it shrinked because it’s a bit to tight now. Not visible on pictures but it’s just uncomfy :/ Therefore I’ll sell it. I think. Or I’ll think of a way to make it larger. Haha!

9. of August

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Hello friends 🙂

Holidays started for me today, I’ll tell you more about that later…

What is it that I am doing these days? Well, I basically chill in my sisters flat, her housemates (and her ofc) just as the whole vibe in there is just so relaxing and nice! Also, Lara and I went to the lake yesterday which is approximately a 30 min bike ride, it was super hot but also so stormy haha, not that cozy. Today I went to the frisbee training the first time since the start of august, I was seriously too busy to go the last 2 weeks.. wow! So yeah.. now I’ve got one week left in Leipzig before heading to Berlin, meeting my lovely Anna and then driving to Danzig with the old squad from school times 😛 September is still completely free, I am having some huge ideas and am hoping to realize them (travel-wise) with one special babe.

Alright, I’ve got a lot to share with you guys. Lets start with these pictures my friend Lotte took of me when we were having our birthday party… She is quite talented, isn’t she?

Catch you later friends, take care:)

It does make sense

Oh these ups and downs! I could already tell this morning that I’d feel weird tonight.

Got up at 6:30 am and started the day slowly, all relaxed 🙂 Then, to get an overall impression, I watched videos about fashion design portfolios (those you need to apply for an academy or uni). I felt overwhelmed because what I saw was so different to my expectations… so different to what I saw myself capable of doing! So – trap of comparison.

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Anyhow, I couldn’t see the passion in the things I do anymore. It was there once, for sure, but the question is: what is my motivation? Getting all perfectly prepared for my future and sacrificing the present? No way! But that was the case… Why am I speaking in past tenses? Because I asked my soul. It just came over me and I was in a dialogue with my soul.

“What is it that you love? I know you know it and therefore I know it deep down, but what is it? Is it something I have to experience yet?” I asked my soul.

The answer came as a feeling. Truly, I encourage you to do the same. If you really seek an answer, you’ll receive ist.

“You already do the things you love. You just can’t enjoy it anymore because you do it for a future event… not for yourself. If the future wouldn’t matter and there were no plans, how would you have spent your day? What is it that you enjoy?”

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And I realised… it is all there. Simply the worries about the future toke up the place of my joy. I mean it is okay to have an idea of the future… but you still live NOW and everything you do, be it meaningful or not, you should do because you enjoy it RIGHT NOW. I actually love spending my day teaching myself drawing, sewing, reading, studying, diving deep. And its so much more fun if you are fully present. Get my drift?

There was a time when i didn’t know what I loved at all. Now I know a few things. This is great. Excuse me, I’m off reading ❤

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P.S.: Just realized how divinely things turn out when you don’t plan. Just floating. Peace xx

My weekend

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My weekend  was so different somehow haha! Like normally when I am alone at home I’d spent lots of time inside doing nothing… especially when it’s 30 + °C outside – pretty reasonable, huh? But this time I did a lot of stuff..

On friday evening I went to Lottes (ex-) place to help her renovate a bit. This is where I spotted the beautiful flowers btw *_* Also, isn’t the quality astonishing for an iPhone 4?

When we finally finished we went back to mine, we had the place to ourselves, made a delicious veggie lasagne with cheeeeese (vegan ofc) and then watched “How to be single”. I watched it with Anna before and it was so hilariously funny I watched it again with Lotte.

On saturday I thought I could finally take a look at a climbing centre in Leipzig… I went climbing every other day in Bristol and haven’t used my gear ever since. Anyway, every circumstance spoke against going on that day, it was frickin hot outside, it was getting late, I could have gone the next day, I had no-one to go with, I would have had to cycle for 30 min. BUT I just couldn’t stand that feeling of “doing nothing and feeling bad about it” anymore, so I JUST WENT. On my own, and yeah, it was fun! I bouldered a bit, inspected the centre (which is amazing) got 3 decent blisters and went back after like 40 minutes 😀

Later Lotti and I wanted to meet up for a picnic in the park where a free open air classical music festival took place, but when I arrived it started to POUR, I was completely soaked after 3 seconds, no kidding!!! But it was warm and utterly energizing, such a good feeling!! Drenched like after a good shower I cycled back home and had my sushi without company haha, but the little trip was worth it anyway!

My hands, or rather the open blisters, hurt so much but thats part of the deal. They’ll heal quickly. Today I cleaned my room, got rid of unused stuff, sorted my wardrobe and then cooked dinner for my family – wedges with a stir fry (pak choi, broccoli, mushrooms, onion, soy sauce)  and guacamole *_* They loved it and so did I, now we are gonna enjoy a quite and cozy evening with reading and cuddling.

 

 

First vitamins, then waffles

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Mornings like this *_* I usually have pure and raw fruits on my empty stomach in the morning, first thing after the fast the body does over night. Incredible health benefits, even plays a huge role in preventing and  curing diseases such as cancer! Sometimes, after digesting the fruit portion, I love to make myself waffles. Well, more frequently than “sometimes”. But they are gluten free, vegan, sugar – and fat free, is there still guilt? NO! All is well especially with homemade vegan chocolate spread (I blend up cashews and hazelnuts together with cocoa, agave nectar, vanilla, plant milk and a bit of coconut oil)! Have a lovely sunny summery successful happy productive relaxing bright day!! Love and light to you guys ❤

Can you believe this??


Hey beautiful souls,

today at 7:23 am I woke up naturally. This blew my mind, because I intended to do so – because I knew the full moon today reaches it’s peak at 7:23!! And I just woke up, looked at my phone and saw these numbers… Crazy innit?!?! Additionally I did a quick grounding meditation , where I just lead energy from my root chakra up to my crown chakra, and it was so intense!! The further I went up towards the head the more I felt the energy filling parts of my body! At some point it was so strong that I thought I’d breathe through some other organs but not my mouth/nose/lungs! It felt very heavy and I would have freaked out in the past, however, nowadays I can kinda enjoy it 🙂

So you guys, the next few days could be very energetic, negative emotions such as fear or grief may come up – attention, this happens FOR YOU, not against you! They want to be released and acknowledged- just accept everything and let it go, emotions come and go as weather does 🙂 it’s time to let go and move on without the baggage! Have a beautiful day, love and light to all of us 🙂 xx