It does make sense

Oh these ups and downs! I could already tell this morning that I’d feel weird tonight.

Got up at 6:30 am and started the day slowly, all relaxed 🙂 Then, to get an overall impression, I watched videos about fashion design portfolios (those you need to apply for an academy or uni). I felt overwhelmed because what I saw was so different to my expectations… so different to what I saw myself capable of doing! So – trap of comparison.

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Anyhow, I couldn’t see the passion in the things I do anymore. It was there once, for sure, but the question is: what is my motivation? Getting all perfectly prepared for my future and sacrificing the present? No way! But that was the case… Why am I speaking in past tenses? Because I asked my soul. It just came over me and I was in a dialogue with my soul.

“What is it that you love? I know you know it and therefore I know it deep down, but what is it? Is it something I have to experience yet?” I asked my soul.

The answer came as a feeling. Truly, I encourage you to do the same. If you really seek an answer, you’ll receive ist.

“You already do the things you love. You just can’t enjoy it anymore because you do it for a future event… not for yourself. If the future wouldn’t matter and there were no plans, how would you have spent your day? What is it that you enjoy?”

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And I realised… it is all there. Simply the worries about the future toke up the place of my joy. I mean it is okay to have an idea of the future… but you still live NOW and everything you do, be it meaningful or not, you should do because you enjoy it RIGHT NOW. I actually love spending my day teaching myself drawing, sewing, reading, studying, diving deep. And its so much more fun if you are fully present. Get my drift?

There was a time when i didn’t know what I loved at all. Now I know a few things. This is great. Excuse me, I’m off reading ❤

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P.S.: Just realized how divinely things turn out when you don’t plan. Just floating. Peace xx

Carbs after dark

Quick update:

just came home from my Ultimate training – so exhausting yet soo satisfying! 😀 and my parents made a ton of gluten free pasta with coconut sauce and another ton of veggies swimming in there (the photos are from Portugal tho 😛 GF pasta with vegan pasta sauce and falafel) ! Ah carbs are just the best! (Have to get another spoonful after writing this post haha! And yes it is 11 pm and I am proud of eating #carbsafterdark 😀 )

Today I did some cleaning, drawing and then went to the forest to meditate. It went well but at some point I got aware of the mosquitos… they were so quiet but still there! So I left my spot in the midst of sand, moss and trees and found myself a nice lonely bench 🙂

Also I cycled to the sports field and back, which is quite far, but I experienced once again that being out to walk or cycle without time pressure ist just so liberating! Pure joy and abundance 🙂 Looking forward to the weekend! Packed with friends and love! xx Jule

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Break the habit

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When I am completely calm my soul speaks to me.

There is a small line between being in the flow of doing what you love with a free spirit and  sliding into a non-inspiring habit. The key is consciousness. Everything we do consciously will always be exciting, adventurous and new. All is unique. Habits can mock boredom. But  this is your life, queen and king. This is not boring but pure bliss! Remember what you love doing – and start. Break the habit. Do it with the excitement you had when you first started. Your love is waiting for you ❤

What really matters

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Hey friends,

today Anna arrived in Leipzig to visit me, first time around since we moved back from Portugal! Of course we saw each other in between but never in Leipzig 🙂 Well, I guess you can imagine how much talk must be talked after a longer period of local separation (always connected internally), as we used to talk for hours every single day back then. We had vegan pizza with my family and then started to watch Youtube videos, but then we got into deep talking again and remembered the importance of mindfulness and meditation and that, next to all the work we are both doing atm, it is utterly necessary to maintain the spiritual habits! Even if it’s hard to start sometimes… it doesn’t take more than the simple decision to sit down for some minutes and stop your mind from thinking unconsciously. We both know that spiritual growth is the foundation for happiness, success and beyond, the most perfect life in the matrix can never satisfy you as much as focusing on the basis – the deepest of it all – the universe within you!

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