oh my gosh I didn’t even know how longs it’s been since I last blogged !!! So sorry!!! 1 month and 10 days, wow. And time flew by. In this last month all I did, basically, was uni stuff: working on the outfit, which is my exam, from the first semester (seriously, it looks like it can be done in 4 days or so but it takes sooo long!!) . Still working on it but it should be finished by tommorow (hopefully). Guess why? We’ll have a test photoshoot on tuesday and the main one on friday/saturday (with real models haha), so excited for the pictures 🙂
Anyway, I am a bit overwhelmed right now by all the tasks we have to get done an then there is my nutrition science study on the side… wellllll it will all work out and it will be worth it. Plus, this is only my third-dimensional reality and I am really excited about entering and exploring higher dimensions. How will I do that? By meditating 🙂 I love you all. xxx Jule
I want a strong root chakra. I want to be so in love with life, for no specific reason, that nothing can really shatter me and that every nice circumstance or situation/happening is just a pleasant bonus. I want to be grounded, balanced, full of trust and (self)love.
I contain nature within myself. I am nature. Pure abundance.
Trust, to me, is a key element for a balanced life. Trust is what slows down stressful moments. When I am worrying about an specific outcome, time, my ability, the future, health, relationships, STUFF – I remember to trust. Because if I know one thing, then it is that everything, in the end, fits together and makes perfect sense! There is a reason to all that is in life. Having trust doesn’t mean to stop caring about the events in your life, as in “it doesn’t matter what I do, life will happen as it will anyway”. No, take the strings and make it what you want it to be, but relax when you are in a situation where you can’t assume control anymore. Have faith, that you’re exactly where you’re supposed to be. For instance, when I rush in the morning and have to wait for train, already anticipating that I’ll be late, I can either stress out internally or just “let it be”. Because there is no point in overcalculating here, I am where I am and if I trust, things will work out (and then, the prof is late as well or no one noticed that I was late etc). Just as we have the possibility to create our own life we have the option to let life guide us now and then 🙂
I do trust that the universe has my back and that is has grand intentions for my existence here on earth, so why not just chill? xx Jule
A group of my old friends from school and I went to Poland and the city of Danzig (Gdansk) to do what we did in Prague 2 years earlier: coming together to camp, have fun, drink, laugh, cook, chill etc. This time our campground was almost directly at the beach (5 mins walking) and we had a huge “base camp” framed by a DDR caravan , VW T5, TIPI tent, a hammock, ale-benches and a tripod holding a huge kettle/cauldron. I didn’t take a camera this year because it just nicer sometimes not to think of taking pictures all the time, but these two here, which I took in Prague, pretty much show the situation!
Well, after 7 days of heavy rain to baking heat we made it back and I went straight to Anna’s. It took us less than an hour and we were diving deeper than my head could process that quickly! We talked about the anunaki “gods” and how there is no such thing like a setting sun, because it’s just us who “turn our backs to the sun”. The sun itself shines day and night so basically there’s absolutely no need for TIME as in DAYTIME and NIGHTTIME. The NOW finally made perfect sense because in the past I used to think:
“Ok if time does not exist and time counting is manmade, why do we have day and night?” But then it hit me and I actually felt dizzy, because the simple fact that the earth is circling doesn’t mean that we need the concept of time.
Howsoever, this is kinda hard to explain. What we have is now and that is more than enough 🙂 Kiss!
It’s been quite around here the last few days… I am currently working on an art portfolio and I feel like the days are passing by so quickly. The only way to slow down “time” is to be in absolut focus and awareness. Obviously every moment is packed with lots of sensations, which, normally, tend to get lost in our busyness of everyday life. But if you observe every second they will, I believe, expand tremendously.
I’ll be back with some samples of the sketches and drawings I make. But I am not really satisfied with them yet, so have a little patience 🙂
It’s always warm in CA. Obviously the reason I felt the need to cut my hair 🙂 HAHA! Here you have the result of Annas amazing work …. most affordable hair cut ever, my pure presence was enough 🙂 This, by the way, is a good base for any kind of relationship (in my opinion)- gratefulness for the other ones existence and vice versa. Your presence is a gift as well, so you are taking and giving at the same time 🙂
Anyway, here we go, first time Jule is seen with relatively short hair since her childhood! Weird fact: when I was at Annas they always fell so nicely (compare last post) and at home, also with my mood dropping (it’s getting better but I was a bit down the last days), they just looked boring. Happy mind – happy hair? Happy attitude – good image of self? However, I am happy with it and ready for the beach!! See you Cali ❤
Night and day. Shadow and light. So beautifully complementing.
I have a truth I experienced myself that I can tell you:
that thing that annoyed you isn’t even real or important. It’s your ego that feels offended and your “pain-body” that holds onto it. After I become present again, I realize that there isn’t even a problem. Life’s still a big funny game and all is well, I can chill 🙂
Eckhard Tolle describes:
The pain-body has a dormant stage and an active stage. Periodically it becomes activated, and when it does, it seeks more suffering to feed on. If you are not absolutely present, it takes over your mind and feeds on negative thinking as well as negative experiences such as drama in relationships. This is how it has been perpetuating itself throughout human history. Another way of describing the pain-body is this: the addiction to unhappiness.
Right, now that we know how unnecessary it is, how do we get rid of it?
It cannot feed on positive thoughts. When the pain-body no longer runs the internal dialogue of our compulsive thinking, we become aware of it directly. We feel the emotion in our body, and so we bring awareness to it, the light of consciousness.
Let me introduce you to my current comfort zone : my life. And you know what’s about to happen? Growth. Because whats happening right know is getting me nowhere and this has to and will be changed (now).
More focus. On my “worldly” goals and, above all, my spiritual ones. I know I could get everything I want (doesn’t have to be materialistic but involves life qualities such as the feeling of freedom and abundance and unconditional love) within like 10 days IF I ONLY STARTED! Ok, end of speech.
Friday, with a touch of spontaneity, I took the coach and train to my old hometown and visited Anna. She thought a lot of things changed and the distance may be a barrier for us BUT OF COURSE (and luckily) we just vibed so strong together again, felt the love and talked about feelings, goals, thoughts etc. I am so grateful for our connection. Just to be understood. And to have the same idea of what life really means. We went to Bora Bora a.k.a the lake Müritz and went swimming just about the same time that the sun set. “Looks good!” she joked as I tried to heave myself unto the bathing jetty, which was quite high. “SO take a picture!!” I screamed back before we were bursting with laughter, me still pressing my body on that landing, not able to push it up fully 😀
An honest, authentic, funny, relaxing, spontaneous, yummy, super warm, summery weekend filled with love. So grateful 🙂
Today I spent my day making sweet-potato pancakes & yes, this is a thing and makes the purrrfect vegan and gluten free american pancakes – and sushi. Also with keeping up with my studies (hurry hurry 😛 ) and finally going to my Ultimate frisbee training. So happy that, eventually, my feet are safe and sound again so I could give my all during the session! But the best part of the day is actually NOW and started with a single feeling, because I remembered the feeling I had when I lived in England. Not because of England but because of the freedom and “isolation” (more or less) of society and its standards. Of talking to a person on such a level that made me dream and believe and see the whole big thing, the universal life. Surprisingly enough, that person and me are currently missing the place we called home for 18 months. Never say never, we all know that, and it’s true. Ohh how sweet it is to enjoy life knowing that all the shit that might destroy your inner peace is just an absolute joke and the freedom you love is always around… or around the corner. It’s a feeling really and right know it has something to do with Bristol (and a person that chose/chooses to spend time with me) ❤
I’ve been thinking and I’ve been not thinking. What I found out is the actual, actually obvious unimportance of everything materialistic. This sounds quite logical and I guess nearly everybody would agree. But only until we forget… as long as all is well and you just live in your cozy little matrix world, we make it our game to gain. Which is alright… this whole human experience is a game with the bonus to be allowed to create your own rules. What I want to say is that from the moment on you realize how fragile all of this stuff, this whole world is, this worldly stuff looses all importance. Just look how easily one can get dependent and forget about true values like self love, self worth, gratitude, being present, listening to oneself, knowledge of self, doing what you love etc. And yet these things build the fundament of any enjoyable relationship – be it with friends, partners, nature, food, family, life – and therefore are so very important to build up! I myself want to be able to fully love other beings and fully dive into life with its countless magical wonders… I want to be able to enjoy and let go and understand those around me. I want to be all there. Truly and unapologetically me. Being and spreading love and positivity.