How I Master My Pain (Light Of Awareness)

Hello you guys and happy new year! I am so lucky that I can say that I’ve had the best NYE of my life so far! I spent it at Elsa’s place with her family, Anna and Lotti! I didn’t even know the family personally before and neither did they know me, but we got along really frickin’ well and I felt super comfortable and homely 🙂 Anyways, I’ve got something else to share with you, an experience I made.

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ABOUT THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN BELIEFS AND WISDOM AND HOW YOU CAN SHIFT YOUR EMOTIONS

In the night from the 1st to the 2nd of january, which in turn I spent in Annas bed, I woke up at 4am. Only about 2 hours after the two of us had a really deep conversation about emotions and independent, unattached love etc, which really revealed some new perspectives. Now, when I woke up, I felt uneasy and thought it is because I had to wee quite badly. So I went to the bathroom and within a moment I realised, that my menstrual pain just started and will get even worse. When I get this it’ll usually keep me awake in pain for a long time, especially if I don’t take pain killers (which I only ever took once). Anyway, I went back to bed and twisted and cramped my body to make it somehow better. But then I realised something:

Firstly, I’ve once read something about how powerful and important the time of the menstruation is (for the woman)

Secondly, that I only had 3 more hours till I had to get up and if I didn’t do anything, it would keep me awake in terrible pain

and finally, that I can do something about my feeling and that the light of pure consiousness can transform darkness to light.

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So, what I did was (it helped, that there was no other option anyway) to get fully into the sensation of pain. To feel it as much as I could, to pay all my attention to it and further “breathing into” my lower belly. With all my attention to it I certainly felt the pain ultimately but it wasn’t worse than the feeling whilst trying to stifle/suppress it. Just like 90 seconds later I felt relief and immediately fell asleep.

When I woke up at 7 am and got ready I totally forgot about what happened at night. Only at one moment a thougt came to my mind saying “Hey, the pain is gone, you feel well! What usually lasted for hours and even the whole next day just dissolved!” Perhaps you can empathize with me about how happy I was, not only about feeling GOOD, but primarily about the wisdom I earned.

Because there is a difference between reading about stuff (techniques,meditation,tips,…..) and

actually doing it and making own experiences. With an personal experience you KNOW something, which again equals wisdom. Reading and believing is not knowing.

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I do believe a lot, because it makes sense to me, but there are only a few  of the spiritual things I really know. Today I am a bit wiser and can say: if you bring awareness to a matter, you can transform it. And if you don’t like an feeling/emotion, you can shift it, but firstly you have to feel it to the fullest, dig into it, giving full power to it for a short moment rather than letting it survive and hurt you subtly for a very long time.

This is it, my friends, my first enlightening realisation of 2017. Hopefully, when needed, this will be helpful for you.

BRING AWARENESS TO YOUR PAIN AND WATCH IT DISSOLVING INTO LIGHT!

Much love, Jule ❤

How to be in love instantly

Yesterday, when I stood unter the shower, I thought about the feeling of being in love and how the whole world changes, how some things get more meaningful and others don’t. How it is so magical that for everyone else the world seems normal but for you everything sparkles.

And then I realized that this sort of feeling isn’t something I have to wait for and that depends on acceptance by others, no, I can just create it myself. Because love equals self love, attention equals self-awareness,

and it is still your choice how you want to perceive the world 🙂

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Todays outfit details // dress from Mango

 

My comfort zone

_1250066Let me introduce you to my current comfort zone : my life. And you know what’s about to happen? Growth. Because whats happening right know is getting me nowhere and this has to and will be changed (now).

More focus. On my “worldly” goals and, above all, my spiritual ones. I know I could get everything I want (doesn’t have to be materialistic but involves life qualities such as the feeling of freedom and abundance and unconditional love) within like 10 days IF I ONLY STARTED! Ok, end of speech.

Friday, with a touch of spontaneity, I took the coach and train to my old hometown and visited Anna. She thought a lot of things changed and the distance may be a barrier for us BUT OF COURSE (and luckily) we just vibed so strong together again, felt the love and talked about feelings, goals, thoughts etc. I am so grateful for our connection. Just to be understood. And to have the same idea of what life really means. We went to Bora Bora a.k.a the lake Müritz and went swimming just about the same time that the sun set. “Looks good!” she joked as I tried to heave myself unto the  bathing jetty, which was quite high. “SO take a picture!!” I screamed back before we were bursting with laughter, me still pressing my body on that landing, not able to push it up fully 😀

An honest, authentic, funny, relaxing, spontaneous, yummy, super warm, summery weekend filled with love. So grateful 🙂

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Bae, our car and I after one of our most adventurous days so far. Eating unbelievably tasty vegan selfmade pizza and fruits, pancakes and what else – watching the atlantic ocean by night.

 

Sweet nothing

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I felt so much “nothing” while being in that forest. Sweet, energetic, positive, pure, clean, inspirational, fulfilling nothing. Someone put his/her hammock in between the trees. Kids built tipis out of dead wood. I sat there , being.

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This is the most inspiring season to go into forests. Believe me, magic happens there 🙂

Back to nature – Sweden

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Why am I still awake… after a students party marathon and a very short and cold night last night… Yeah right because I really want to update my blog before heading off to the next adventure – SWEDEN tomorrow!

It really makes sense, you’ll see – my sister got herself a car, my stepdad planned to go up north for a week, she wanted to come along and offered to drive with her new car. With her she takes two of her best buddies… and me! When I came back from Portugal I got asked because there was still one seat left in the car, so I was like why not haha! It’s always such a beautiful time up there (my stepdad is lucky enough to own a cute little house in the middle of Swedens nowhere) and so I am really exited 🙂 Fortunately, when in Sweden and in the countryside, you almost don’t need anything… comfy pants, sweater, outdoor jacket. Guitar, camera, music, wine 🙂 Still have to pack my things and make provisions tomorrow, and this time we’ll even have wi-fi in the house (first time for me in like 10 years) so maybe I can still blog 🙂 But primarily I want to use the time to get back to nature, back to myself… training mindfulness and being aware of all those little things 🙂

Sleep well and see you later girls and boys ❤

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–> Photos taken in Öland, Sweden during a bicycle tour last year 🙂

What really matters

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Hey friends,

today Anna arrived in Leipzig to visit me, first time around since we moved back from Portugal! Of course we saw each other in between but never in Leipzig 🙂 Well, I guess you can imagine how much talk must be talked after a longer period of local separation (always connected internally), as we used to talk for hours every single day back then. We had vegan pizza with my family and then started to watch Youtube videos, but then we got into deep talking again and remembered the importance of mindfulness and meditation and that, next to all the work we are both doing atm, it is utterly necessary to maintain the spiritual habits! Even if it’s hard to start sometimes… it doesn’t take more than the simple decision to sit down for some minutes and stop your mind from thinking unconsciously. We both know that spiritual growth is the foundation for happiness, success and beyond, the most perfect life in the matrix can never satisfy you as much as focusing on the basis – the deepest of it all – the universe within you!

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