I want a strong root chakra. I want to be so in love with life, for no specific reason, that nothing can really shatter me and that every nice circumstance or situation/happening is just a pleasant bonus. I want to be grounded, balanced, full of trust and (self)love.
I contain nature within myself. I am nature. Pure abundance.
Puh, I guess I can say without any exaggeration that I’ve been super lazy blogging!
But not because I didn’t have any ideas or feel like it, no… I’ve been actually super busy doing other things. I know, this is not typically me. But the last few weeks were so packed with all that stuff that is leading me into the life of a student. New flat, new flatmates, worries and excitement towards the future! It’s funny playing this society game haha! I mean how hilarious is life? 7 months ago I didn’t waste a single thought on the option of studying 😀 So now I’ll take things as they are and give my best to stay conscious and always remember the true values of life!
Like moments like this. I said it before and I’ll say it again:
My closest friends and family can always come to mine. Babe, I’m honest. Looking forward to the day that I come home and bae is laying in my bed (with some vegan baked goods haha or mashed potatoes and peas). This also goes out to my sweetest sister, as well as my cousin. Just to count a few 🙂
I am officially accepted for FASHION DESIGN STUDIES in Leipzig. Whuuuaaa. I spent 3 super intense weeks on creating my art portfolio, because I went to the advanced arts course in high school indeed, yet I haven’t ever collected my art or suchlike. I started from zero and really transformed my usual everyday life into an artsy non-stop period of learning and creating. My parents went on holidays in those exact 3 weeks so I had the flat for myself, and trust me, I needed it. Paper, pencils, watercolors, charcoal, markers, fabric, thread etc everywhere! Eventually I managed to put together 16 cardboards with diverse pieces of art, from sketches to figurines, watercolor portraits, charcoal nude drawings and photographs of my personally designed and sewn clothes to collages. There is one thing I learned and now KNOW from experience, which is:
If you are forced to do something and keep on track (at pressure), you can become good at things you haven’t ever done before. It’s not about what you THINK you can or can’t do; because actually you can, if you only started!
But, to be fair, its way easier to keep on track if you do it with a purpose and a deadline. I think I would probably never have started drawing if it wasn’t for that application. After some tries I would get disappointed and just skip it. And this is the gap you need to pass…
So I went to the interview with my portfolio, thinking this would be so easy as its a private university and they will take everyone they can get. Way off the mark!! This guy there asked a lot of complex questions, also technical stuff that I’ve never heard off (like computer programs for cutting patterns etc), then how I would do this and that, how I would react in that situation or what young fashion designers can apply for after studies except from normal design jobs. In the end he evaluated me as a positively straight freak who is both self confident and modest. Additionally, I am, according to him, really openminded and internationally interested, which is good. Soo I got accepted straight away and it took a load off my mind!
The days after I fell into a sort of a limbo because I had nothing to do anymore? And I doubted if the way was the right for me…. well, my days were filled again quite quickly as I am looking for a flat atm. Busy stuff, so glad when its finally done. But yeah, the feeling of uncertainty stayed and I even doubted my competence to do that study. But today I feel better about it, also because my mom always says that I should just start and I can skip everytime hahah 😀 Because obviously I am just scared of that new thing and its always good to do the things your mind tells you you can’t (no stupid things please).
Ohh my this was a long post. If you read it all: thank you so much, i love you 😀 If not, never mind, I mainly do it for myself 🙂 Now enjoy some of the pictures I took of Lara wearing my clothes! xxx
It’s been loooong again, I know. Here you have a picture of my friend Lara I took some years ago… gonna meet her today here in Leipzig, we went to school together and now live in the same city again hehe 🙂 She is such a natural beauty, inside and out, looking forward to capture her again today ❤
Tomorrow is a big day in the houseshare of my sister… party!! And next week’s gonna be exciting as well, stay tuned! Alright, gotta go 🙂 I’ll be back with pictures of my artworks, promise xxx
I felt so much “nothing” while being in that forest. Sweet, energetic, positive, pure, clean, inspirational, fulfilling nothing. Someone put his/her hammock in between the trees. Kids built tipis out of dead wood. I sat there , being.
This is the most inspiring season to go into forests. Believe me, magic happens there 🙂
it certainly would, if I wouldn’t stop it from doing so first.I can get really nervous before doing something that I can’t completely control in terms of “what will happen/how will it be/can I do this/…” This happens the most when I am about to try something new. Music classes, group events, or – most frequent – sports. Whilst writing this I kinda realize that it could just be appointments in general which stress me out… mh. Anyways, I’ve always been a sporty kid. Not always by choice, but it played a huge role in my life all along. Strangely, it happens that I am super nervous before a training… even if I know what to expect! But it’s just the mind which tells me “Argh, you must plan, you have to schedule that and then you’re not even sure what will happen – whereas at home (aka comfort zone) everythings so safe and relaxed!”
Same thing today when Lotte asked me to come along to her frisbee class tonight. Whuat, today?? I was afraid of the circumstances… concerned about if I felt good enough, the weather conditions, my timing… however, I went. And it was great. Exhaustingly great and fricking cold.
Not that it was simply freezing, it started to rain and then soft hail, wich really hurt our frozen hands! But we continued, dried a little, got soaked by the rain again and finally ended the training with contentment happiness! I definitely learned (once again)that I can approach new things more relaxed and laid back, because everything will work out fine 🙂
It’s a while ago that I felt SUCH GRATITUDE for my home and a hot shower, wow! I know guys, it’s uncomfortable to admit, but the comfort zone is so much cozier after leaving it (and then coming back) 🙂 Next we watched Game of Thrones and now I am super done, in a positive way! Looking forward to being productive tomorrow! Night! ❤
It takes courage to do the first action, everything that follows is your reward! The universe takes care of everything and gives you all that is good – if you only take the first step!
We arrived- finally! 25 hours on the road and ferry, 5 passengers with lots of food and even more baggage. We slept in our sleeping bags in a corner of a hallway on the ferry, which brought us over to Sweden over night 🙂 it’s fresh and both sunny and rainy here, but the air is so crisp and awesome, it’s just fantastic 😀 I’m gonna sleep well tonight, I wish the same to you too ❤
Back in January I would get angry about mentioning the option of going back to Germany and stay longer than 2 weeks. About letting the next chapter of my journey taking place at home. I was so feeling the whole “living in a foreign country without planning and return dates” that I couldn’t think of pausing that lifestyle. But – this I knew from my heart – it wouldn’t be too bad either. Could be actually really fun, having endless opportunities at home, let alone some amazing german products we’ve missed abroad. Well, home for me meant getting back to the old everyday live, stop living the dream .. but bullshit! If I’ve learned anything on my travels then that it is always my choice to do or not do whatever I want! And it doesn’t matter where… the most beautiful place is in your heart (aww, cheesy but true) and no spot on earth can ever bring you fulfilling happiness seperately! Sooo… we can always come back I said, Germany is just another destination after England and Portugal, we can leave for the adventure again as soon as we like!
Now, back home for almost 1 month I must say, everything worked in favor for us again! Fate, I mean. I am loving it, still not planning but living freely and continiously doing what I love. It makes such a difference… and trust is everything. A favourite saying of mine is:
Live each moment completely and the future will take care of itself. – Yogananda
No need to worry, everything is good, just let go and accept and know that things happen for you and for your favor 🙂
Here where I live, which is in Portugal, it’s 1o past midnight. I spend the whole day on creating this blog, testing every option thinkable and finally am somewhat happy with the outcome. A blog, at least from the outside, always seems to run so effortlessly. However, it takes a whole lot of time to create it (even those small bits), wich are not even necessarily visible for the readers. Don’t get me wrong; it’s super fun! I definitely woulnd’t do it if it wasn’t for me and the fun in the first place 🙂
Anyway, this is by far not my first blog but I really feel like starting something fresh and new, going more into the “lifestyle and daily blogger” direction. Well, I can’t wait to fill this baby with lots and lots of posts full of realness, personal talk and hopefully inspiring pictures of my everyday life. Stay tuned and tank you so much for reading xxx Jule