Just another wonderful day in the capital with a girl without a label. I just realized again that even the label “friend” constrains the relationship with the expectations and prototypes society imposes on us. Besides kindness, just act like you feel towards a person. You esteem me? Spent a little of your precious time with me as a present. Help me out when I need support. Jump for joy with me when life is sweet. Not because you are my friend but because you enjoy us being together 🙂
Puh, I guess I can say without any exaggeration that I’ve been super lazy blogging!
But not because I didn’t have any ideas or feel like it, no… I’ve been actually super busy doing other things. I know, this is not typically me. But the last few weeks were so packed with all that stuff that is leading me into the life of a student. New flat, new flatmates, worries and excitement towards the future! It’s funny playing this society game haha! I mean how hilarious is life? 7 months ago I didn’t waste a single thought on the option of studying 😀 So now I’ll take things as they are and give my best to stay conscious and always remember the true values of life!
Like moments like this. I said it before and I’ll say it again:
My closest friends and family can always come to mine. Babe, I’m honest. Looking forward to the day that I come home and bae is laying in my bed (with some vegan baked goods haha or mashed potatoes and peas). This also goes out to my sweetest sister, as well as my cousin. Just to count a few 🙂
I am officially accepted for FASHION DESIGN STUDIES in Leipzig. Whuuuaaa. I spent 3 super intense weeks on creating my art portfolio, because I went to the advanced arts course in high school indeed, yet I haven’t ever collected my art or suchlike. I started from zero and really transformed my usual everyday life into an artsy non-stop period of learning and creating. My parents went on holidays in those exact 3 weeks so I had the flat for myself, and trust me, I needed it. Paper, pencils, watercolors, charcoal, markers, fabric, thread etc everywhere! Eventually I managed to put together 16 cardboards with diverse pieces of art, from sketches to figurines, watercolor portraits, charcoal nude drawings and photographs of my personally designed and sewn clothes to collages. There is one thing I learned and now KNOW from experience, which is:
If you are forced to do something and keep on track (at pressure), you can become good at things you haven’t ever done before. It’s not about what you THINK you can or can’t do; because actually you can, if you only started!
But, to be fair, its way easier to keep on track if you do it with a purpose and a deadline. I think I would probably never have started drawing if it wasn’t for that application. After some tries I would get disappointed and just skip it. And this is the gap you need to pass…
So I went to the interview with my portfolio, thinking this would be so easy as its a private university and they will take everyone they can get. Way off the mark!! This guy there asked a lot of complex questions, also technical stuff that I’ve never heard off (like computer programs for cutting patterns etc), then how I would do this and that, how I would react in that situation or what young fashion designers can apply for after studies except from normal design jobs. In the end he evaluated me as a positively straight freak who is both self confident and modest. Additionally, I am, according to him, really openminded and internationally interested, which is good. Soo I got accepted straight away and it took a load off my mind!
The days after I fell into a sort of a limbo because I had nothing to do anymore? And I doubted if the way was the right for me…. well, my days were filled again quite quickly as I am looking for a flat atm. Busy stuff, so glad when its finally done. But yeah, the feeling of uncertainty stayed and I even doubted my competence to do that study. But today I feel better about it, also because my mom always says that I should just start and I can skip everytime hahah 😀 Because obviously I am just scared of that new thing and its always good to do the things your mind tells you you can’t (no stupid things please).
Ohh my this was a long post. If you read it all: thank you so much, i love you 😀 If not, never mind, I mainly do it for myself 🙂 Now enjoy some of the pictures I took of Lara wearing my clothes! xxx
Holidays started for me today, I’ll tell you more about that later…
What is it that I am doing these days? Well, I basically chill in my sisters flat, her housemates (and her ofc) just as the whole vibe in there is just so relaxing and nice! Also, Lara and I went to the lake yesterday which is approximately a 30 min bike ride, it was super hot but also so stormy haha, not that cozy. Today I went to the frisbee training the first time since the start of august, I was seriously too busy to go the last 2 weeks.. wow! So yeah.. now I’ve got one week left in Leipzig before heading to Berlin, meeting my lovely Anna and then driving to Danzig with the old squad from school times 😛 September is still completely free, I am having some huge ideas and am hoping to realize them (travel-wise) with one special babe.
Alright, I’ve got a lot to share with you guys. Lets start with these pictures my friend Lotte took of me when we were having our birthday party… She is quite talented, isn’t she?
Résumé: that night was kinda hard. Meditating was good and enjoyable but fasting and staying awake all night at the same time can be sligthly frustrating! I guess this is why I had some fruits at 4 am, it’s been 28 hours without food and I read that one meal is permitted during Shivaratri 😀 But anyway, I made it and so did Anna! As soon as the sun rose I made myself breakfast and we watched Game of Thrones and later on Totoru, but I fell asleep after like 30 mins and woke up 2 hours later? Both of us actually haha 😀
The pictures above are in front of the zoo we have in our town. It was too late and too expensive for us (13 € :O ) to get in, but the scenery was still so nice and spring-like 🙂
Now after dinner (I had lentil&spinach dahl with roasted potatoes, broccoli and tomatoes – so delicious!) and our video-watching ritual I could really see some more episodes of GoT 😀 So we will! Have a cozy night <3
Camera: my old Sony cyber-shot dsc-hx5v Editing: PhotoScape Coat: Topshop (carity shop 10 pounds)