I want a strong root chakra. I want to be so in love with life, for no specific reason, that nothing can really shatter me and that every nice circumstance or situation/happening is just a pleasant bonus. I want to be grounded, balanced, full of trust and (self)love.
I contain nature within myself. I am nature. Pure abundance.
I am back from an amazing and surprising weekend in Poland where we celebrated the birthday of good friend. After two days among 60 people I finally got to know a woman who vibes with me on a deep level. She’s a reiki healer and on her personal spiritual journey as well and we dived deep into topics like chakra healing, protection against other peoples negative energy (wear hats!), twin flames, self love etc!
One thing that is pretty present in my life right now is that I have to learn to be courageous enough to do what I am afraid of, because
You know your way by looking at the things you fear!
Btw, are you experiencing a rough time right know with more stress or bad luck than usual? You should know that its the MERCURY RETROGRADE in virgo right now, bringing chaos with it, and we need to be really aware and conscious and double check everything! It’s a great time to rethink actions or to finish something. DO NOT plan or make big actions, sign contracts, make agreements (not even verbal), start anything new. It is more likely to not last and it may change very quickly. The main period terminates on the 22.09.
So this is why I still didn’t sign a contract for a flat and why I’ll wait till the mercury is through the most intense phase of its retrograde!
Also, what my friend just told me, it is a good time to get rid of stuff and tidy out. Supposedly it is easier to part with stuff you don’t need any longer, so this is what I did on friday and will do today as well 🙂
It’s always nice because I find stuff I kinda forgot about and which I thought would no longer suit me, like this grey skirt I am wearing in the picture above. But then I start mixing it up with other items and find myself in an outfit I really like! 🙂
A group of my old friends from school and I went to Poland and the city of Danzig (Gdansk) to do what we did in Prague 2 years earlier: coming together to camp, have fun, drink, laugh, cook, chill etc. This time our campground was almost directly at the beach (5 mins walking) and we had a huge “base camp” framed by a DDR caravan , VW T5, TIPI tent, a hammock, ale-benches and a tripod holding a huge kettle/cauldron. I didn’t take a camera this year because it just nicer sometimes not to think of taking pictures all the time, but these two here, which I took in Prague, pretty much show the situation!
Well, after 7 days of heavy rain to baking heat we made it back and I went straight to Anna’s. It took us less than an hour and we were diving deeper than my head could process that quickly! We talked about the anunaki “gods” and how there is no such thing like a setting sun, because it’s just us who “turn our backs to the sun”. The sun itself shines day and night so basically there’s absolutely no need for TIME as in DAYTIME and NIGHTTIME. The NOW finally made perfect sense because in the past I used to think:
“Ok if time does not exist and time counting is manmade, why do we have day and night?” But then it hit me and I actually felt dizzy, because the simple fact that the earth is circling doesn’t mean that we need the concept of time.
Howsoever, this is kinda hard to explain. What we have is now and that is more than enough 🙂 Kiss!
Night and day. Shadow and light. So beautifully complementing.
I have a truth I experienced myself that I can tell you:
that thing that annoyed you isn’t even real or important. It’s your ego that feels offended and your “pain-body” that holds onto it. After I become present again, I realize that there isn’t even a problem. Life’s still a big funny game and all is well, I can chill 🙂
Eckhard Tolle describes:
The pain-body has a dormant stage and an active stage. Periodically it becomes activated, and when it does, it seeks more suffering to feed on. If you are not absolutely present, it takes over your mind and feeds on negative thinking as well as negative experiences such as drama in relationships. This is how it has been perpetuating itself throughout human history. Another way of describing the pain-body is this: the addiction to unhappiness.
Right, now that we know how unnecessary it is, how do we get rid of it?
It cannot feed on positive thoughts. When the pain-body no longer runs the internal dialogue of our compulsive thinking, we become aware of it directly. We feel the emotion in our body, and so we bring awareness to it, the light of consciousness.
Let me introduce you to my current comfort zone : my life. And you know what’s about to happen? Growth. Because whats happening right know is getting me nowhere and this has to and will be changed (now).
More focus. On my “worldly” goals and, above all, my spiritual ones. I know I could get everything I want (doesn’t have to be materialistic but involves life qualities such as the feeling of freedom and abundance and unconditional love) within like 10 days IF I ONLY STARTED! Ok, end of speech.
Friday, with a touch of spontaneity, I took the coach and train to my old hometown and visited Anna. She thought a lot of things changed and the distance may be a barrier for us BUT OF COURSE (and luckily) we just vibed so strong together again, felt the love and talked about feelings, goals, thoughts etc. I am so grateful for our connection. Just to be understood. And to have the same idea of what life really means. We went to Bora Bora a.k.a the lake Müritz and went swimming just about the same time that the sun set. “Looks good!” she joked as I tried to heave myself unto the bathing jetty, which was quite high. “SO take a picture!!” I screamed back before we were bursting with laughter, me still pressing my body on that landing, not able to push it up fully 😀
An honest, authentic, funny, relaxing, spontaneous, yummy, super warm, summery weekend filled with love. So grateful 🙂
Today I spent my day making sweet-potato pancakes & yes, this is a thing and makes the purrrfect vegan and gluten free american pancakes – and sushi. Also with keeping up with my studies (hurry hurry 😛 ) and finally going to my Ultimate frisbee training. So happy that, eventually, my feet are safe and sound again so I could give my all during the session! But the best part of the day is actually NOW and started with a single feeling, because I remembered the feeling I had when I lived in England. Not because of England but because of the freedom and “isolation” (more or less) of society and its standards. Of talking to a person on such a level that made me dream and believe and see the whole big thing, the universal life. Surprisingly enough, that person and me are currently missing the place we called home for 18 months. Never say never, we all know that, and it’s true. Ohh how sweet it is to enjoy life knowing that all the shit that might destroy your inner peace is just an absolute joke and the freedom you love is always around… or around the corner. It’s a feeling really and right know it has something to do with Bristol (and a person that chose/chooses to spend time with me) ❤
I’ve been thinking and I’ve been not thinking. What I found out is the actual, actually obvious unimportance of everything materialistic. This sounds quite logical and I guess nearly everybody would agree. But only until we forget… as long as all is well and you just live in your cozy little matrix world, we make it our game to gain. Which is alright… this whole human experience is a game with the bonus to be allowed to create your own rules. What I want to say is that from the moment on you realize how fragile all of this stuff, this whole world is, this worldly stuff looses all importance. Just look how easily one can get dependent and forget about true values like self love, self worth, gratitude, being present, listening to oneself, knowledge of self, doing what you love etc. And yet these things build the fundament of any enjoyable relationship – be it with friends, partners, nature, food, family, life – and therefore are so very important to build up! I myself want to be able to fully love other beings and fully dive into life with its countless magical wonders… I want to be able to enjoy and let go and understand those around me. I want to be all there. Truly and unapologetically me. Being and spreading love and positivity.
today at 7:23 am I woke up naturally. This blew my mind, because I intended to do so – because I knew the full moon today reaches it’s peak at 7:23!! And I just woke up, looked at my phone and saw these numbers… Crazy innit?!?! Additionally I did a quick grounding meditation , where I just lead energy from my root chakra up to my crown chakra, and it was so intense!! The further I went up towards the head the more I felt the energy filling parts of my body! At some point it was so strong that I thought I’d breathe through some other organs but not my mouth/nose/lungs! It felt very heavy and I would have freaked out in the past, however, nowadays I can kinda enjoy it 🙂
So you guys, the next few days could be very energetic, negative emotions such as fear or grief may come up – attention, this happens FOR YOU, not against you! They want to be released and acknowledged- just accept everything and let it go, emotions come and go as weather does 🙂 it’s time to let go and move on without the baggage! Have a beautiful day, love and light to all of us 🙂 xx
today Anna arrived in Leipzig to visit me, first time around since we moved back from Portugal! Of course we saw each other in between but never in Leipzig 🙂 Well, I guess you can imagine how much talk must be talked after a longer period of local separation (always connected internally), as we used to talk for hours every single day back then. We had vegan pizza with my family and then started to watch Youtube videos, but then we got into deep talking again and remembered the importance of mindfulness and meditation and that, next to all the work we are both doing atm, it is utterly necessary to maintain the spiritual habits! Even if it’s hard to start sometimes… it doesn’t take more than the simple decision to sit down for some minutes and stop your mind from thinking unconsciously. We both know that spiritual growth is the foundation for happiness, success and beyond, the most perfect life in the matrix can never satisfy you as much as focusing on the basis – the deepest of it all – the universe within you!