Just another wonderful day in the capital with a girl without a label. I just realized again that even the label “friend” constrains the relationship with the expectations and prototypes society imposes on us. Besides kindness, just act like you feel towards a person. You esteem me? Spent a little of your precious time with me as a present. Help me out when I need support. Jump for joy with me when life is sweet. Not because you are my friend but because you enjoy us being together 🙂
I am officially accepted for FASHION DESIGN STUDIES in Leipzig. Whuuuaaa. I spent 3 super intense weeks on creating my art portfolio, because I went to the advanced arts course in high school indeed, yet I haven’t ever collected my art or suchlike. I started from zero and really transformed my usual everyday life into an artsy non-stop period of learning and creating. My parents went on holidays in those exact 3 weeks so I had the flat for myself, and trust me, I needed it. Paper, pencils, watercolors, charcoal, markers, fabric, thread etc everywhere! Eventually I managed to put together 16 cardboards with diverse pieces of art, from sketches to figurines, watercolor portraits, charcoal nude drawings and photographs of my personally designed and sewn clothes to collages. There is one thing I learned and now KNOW from experience, which is:
If you are forced to do something and keep on track (at pressure), you can become good at things you haven’t ever done before. It’s not about what you THINK you can or can’t do; because actually you can, if you only started!
But, to be fair, its way easier to keep on track if you do it with a purpose and a deadline. I think I would probably never have started drawing if it wasn’t for that application. After some tries I would get disappointed and just skip it. And this is the gap you need to pass…
So I went to the interview with my portfolio, thinking this would be so easy as its a private university and they will take everyone they can get. Way off the mark!! This guy there asked a lot of complex questions, also technical stuff that I’ve never heard off (like computer programs for cutting patterns etc), then how I would do this and that, how I would react in that situation or what young fashion designers can apply for after studies except from normal design jobs. In the end he evaluated me as a positively straight freak who is both self confident and modest. Additionally, I am, according to him, really openminded and internationally interested, which is good. Soo I got accepted straight away and it took a load off my mind!
The days after I fell into a sort of a limbo because I had nothing to do anymore? And I doubted if the way was the right for me…. well, my days were filled again quite quickly as I am looking for a flat atm. Busy stuff, so glad when its finally done. But yeah, the feeling of uncertainty stayed and I even doubted my competence to do that study. But today I feel better about it, also because my mom always says that I should just start and I can skip everytime hahah 😀 Because obviously I am just scared of that new thing and its always good to do the things your mind tells you you can’t (no stupid things please).
Ohh my this was a long post. If you read it all: thank you so much, i love you 😀 If not, never mind, I mainly do it for myself 🙂 Now enjoy some of the pictures I took of Lara wearing my clothes! xxx
I am going to Berlin tomorrow! There’s a home party on Friday night and the next one at Elsa’s on Saturday! Haven’t had a party marathon for years (it feels like), but I am looking forward to seeing many of my old friends ❤
Today was special. I met up with Lotti at the uni canteen for lunch after I enjoyed it that much yesterday! She’s incredibly busy with her medicine study but still making time to see me which is gorgeous 🙂 Later on, on my way back home, the tram I need didn’t operate due to an accident. Well, shit, I thought, now I had to walk home with that immense bag of Rossmann (drug store) organic goodies… but I decided to enjoy it and so did I ! Walking down the road like a catwalk, innerly dancing to the music I was listening to. Awesome 😀
Back home I got some work done, also made vegan bounty and damson (Bärlauch) pesto (so fricking hot :O )and had dinner with my fam! My stepdad made the most delicious dish… mustard-y lentils and oven-veggies (radishes, kohlrabi and carrots) – I know it sounds weird and uncommon, I was skeptical myself… but gooooosh, I was so surprised and pleased by this meal!! As I sat there I started to get a deep feeling of contentment, happiness… pure gratefulness for the very moment and the people I shared it with… it’s not that often that I experience it this consciously… so great 🙂
And last but not least, after a feeling of stress wanted to sneak in, I meditated, just focusing on being relaxed and mindful, and it was so beautifully intense! I thought my arms were crossed and my hands on my knees, but in fact they were both resting in my lap! Now I am energetically charged again and some things I almost worried about worked out pretty well after that:) Synchronicity came up like a hundred times and now I want to sleep. A fun, relaxed and beautiful weekend lies in front of me… See you later ❤
Here where I live, which is in Portugal, it’s 1o past midnight. I spend the whole day on creating this blog, testing every option thinkable and finally am somewhat happy with the outcome. A blog, at least from the outside, always seems to run so effortlessly. However, it takes a whole lot of time to create it (even those small bits), wich are not even necessarily visible for the readers. Don’t get me wrong; it’s super fun! I definitely woulnd’t do it if it wasn’t for me and the fun in the first place 🙂
Anyway, this is by far not my first blog but I really feel like starting something fresh and new, going more into the “lifestyle and daily blogger” direction. Well, I can’t wait to fill this baby with lots and lots of posts full of realness, personal talk and hopefully inspiring pictures of my everyday life. Stay tuned and tank you so much for reading xxx Jule