Accidentally exiting the Matrix

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Tell me, what do you see? Is it a wave of  pinkish water that foams, is it crazy clouds, what is it?

Even if it may seem obvious for you, your perception may differ tremendously from that of another person. Our mind plays tricks, so does our “reality”, and the matrix we are forced into. IF we choose to stay asleep and not to wake up and question the things we perceive.

Anyway, today I was on my way to the tram. I had to cross a street and stood there waiting for the traffic light to turn green. I was quite in a rush and thought:”This should really turn green now, I NEED to go. But I’ll just trust that fate is leading me to where I should go at the right time.”
I looked at the traffic light for the cars. It was red. “Weird, it’s been red for a while now, shouldn’t mine turn green?” I wondered. After a minute or so it hit me; “Bugger me! it IS green! It was all the time! Oh my gosh…”-I laughed so hard about myself -” oh my goooosh that is crazy! I was SEING, BELIEVING that there was the red light. It was so certain to me! (What the heck did the person in the car think, seeing me, standing in front of the green traffic light, waiting on edge  XD).”

Guys, I left the matrix for a second. Something I’d learned for 2 decades suddenly lost its value. It wasn’t THE TRUTH anymore. And, once again, this makes clear how strongly we create our own reality and how we act upon things because we BELIEVE something to be real (through believe systems we adopt as kids).

So stay awake guys! Open you eyes (I will look at traffic lights more consciously now haha).

L O V E ❤

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22 hours abundant love

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She came and she left after 22 intense hours. Not that she is actually leaving, just switching home towns, as for me, she is part of the flatshare just as I am part of hers! So Anna and I finally got to spent time in my new home and as usual, it didn’t take us a lot of time to dive deep and get on the philosophic and spiritual wave. Also, what I notice every time is that face-to-face talking about thoughts and feelings is worth a mint!! Like how we both feel about living with other people and not sharing a room anymore, how we perceive our friendship etc!

You guys, wait with evaluating a situation until you have heard the other sides perception! Talking is everyting 🙂

Moreover, we made it to the food store and later cooked a freaking filling vegan dinner! Well, there may be healthier things than potato rösti (hash browns), but the vietnamese summer rolls were some real goodness consisting of heaps of fresh veggies, tofu and rice noodles! Talking of food I want to remind myself: see it as energy. An unripe mango does not have any nutritional value, so a fruit based diet in germany (especially in autumn, winter, spring) just doesn’t work so well! Here we have all kinds of cabbage, tubers, ground veggies.. yay! 😀 But seriously; I love me some mashed potatoes with fried veggies and some sort of beans or other rprotein sources 🙂

My roots

 

I want a strong root chakra. I want to be so in love with life, for no specific reason, that nothing can really shatter me and that every nice circumstance or situation/happening is just a pleasant bonus. I want to be grounded, balanced, full of trust and (self)love.

I contain nature within myself. I am nature. Pure abundance.

 

Trust issues

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“iTrust”, Jule M, 2016

Trust, to me, is a key element for a balanced life. Trust is what slows down stressful moments. When I am worrying about an specific outcome, time, my ability, the future, health, relationships, STUFF – I remember to trust. Because if I know one thing, then it is that everything, in the end, fits together and makes perfect sense! There is a reason to all that is in life. Having trust doesn’t mean to stop caring about the events in your life, as in “it doesn’t matter what I do, life will happen as it will anyway”. No, take the strings and make it what you want it to be, but relax when you are in a situation where you can’t assume control anymore. Have faith, that you’re exactly  where you’re supposed to be. For instance, when I rush in the morning and have to wait for train, already anticipating that I’ll be late, I can either stress out internally or just “let it be”. Because there is no point in overcalculating here, I am where I am and if I trust, things will work out (and then, the  prof is late as well or no one noticed that I was late etc). Just as we have the possibility to create our own life we have the option to let life guide us now and then 🙂

I do trust that the universe has my back and that is has grand intentions for my existence here on earth, so why not just chill? xx Jule

#mercuryretrograde – what’s best to do & not do ☽ ♍

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Hey guys!

I am back from an amazing and surprising weekend in Poland where we celebrated the birthday of good friend. After two days among 60 people I finally got to know a woman who vibes with me on a deep level. She’s a reiki healer and on her personal spiritual journey as well and we dived deep into topics like chakra healing, protection against other peoples negative energy (wear hats!), twin flames, self love etc!

One thing that is pretty present in my life right now is that I have to learn to be courageous enough to do what I am afraid of, because

You know your way by looking at the things you fear!

Btw, are you experiencing a rough time right know with more stress or bad luck than usual? You should know that its the MERCURY RETROGRADE in virgo right now, bringing chaos with it, and we need to be really aware and conscious and double check everything! It’s a great time to rethink actions or to finish something. DO NOT plan or make big actions, sign contracts, make agreements (not even verbal), start anything new. It is more likely to not last and it may change very quickly. The main period terminates on the 22.09.

So this is why I still didn’t sign a contract for a flat and why I’ll wait till the mercury is through the most intense phase of its retrograde!

Also, what my friend just told me, it is a good time to get rid of stuff and tidy out. Supposedly it is easier to part with stuff you don’t need any longer, so this is what I did on friday and will do today as well 🙂

It’s always nice because I find stuff I kinda forgot about and which I thought would no longer suit me, like this grey skirt I am wearing in the picture above. But then I start mixing it up with other items and find myself in an outfit I really like! 🙂

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My lunch, recipe in this blogpost ❤

About cruising on earth

I’m back from Danzig!

A group of my old friends from school and I went to Poland and the city of Danzig (Gdansk) to do what we did in Prague 2 years earlier: coming together to camp, have fun, drink, laugh, cook, chill etc. This time our campground was almost directly at the beach (5 mins walking) and we had a huge “base camp” framed by a DDR caravan , VW T5, TIPI tent, a hammock, ale-benches and a tripod holding a huge kettle/cauldron. I didn’t take a camera this year because it just nicer sometimes not to think of taking pictures all the time, but these two here, which I took in Prague, pretty much show the situation!

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Well, after 7 days of heavy rain to baking heat we made it back and I went straight to Anna’s. It took us less than an hour and we were diving deeper than my head could process that quickly! We talked about the anunaki “gods” and how there is no such thing like a setting sun, because it’s just us who “turn our backs to the sun”. The sun itself shines day and night so basically there’s absolutely no need for TIME as in DAYTIME and NIGHTTIME. The NOW finally made perfect sense because in the past I used to think:

“Ok if time does not exist and time counting is manmade, why do we have day and night?” But then it hit me and I actually felt dizzy, because the simple fact that the earth is circling doesn’t mean that we need the concept of time.

Howsoever, this is kinda hard to explain.  What we have is now and that is more than enough 🙂 Kiss!

It does make sense

Oh these ups and downs! I could already tell this morning that I’d feel weird tonight.

Got up at 6:30 am and started the day slowly, all relaxed 🙂 Then, to get an overall impression, I watched videos about fashion design portfolios (those you need to apply for an academy or uni). I felt overwhelmed because what I saw was so different to my expectations… so different to what I saw myself capable of doing! So – trap of comparison.

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Anyhow, I couldn’t see the passion in the things I do anymore. It was there once, for sure, but the question is: what is my motivation? Getting all perfectly prepared for my future and sacrificing the present? No way! But that was the case… Why am I speaking in past tenses? Because I asked my soul. It just came over me and I was in a dialogue with my soul.

“What is it that you love? I know you know it and therefore I know it deep down, but what is it? Is it something I have to experience yet?” I asked my soul.

The answer came as a feeling. Truly, I encourage you to do the same. If you really seek an answer, you’ll receive ist.

“You already do the things you love. You just can’t enjoy it anymore because you do it for a future event… not for yourself. If the future wouldn’t matter and there were no plans, how would you have spent your day? What is it that you enjoy?”

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And I realised… it is all there. Simply the worries about the future toke up the place of my joy. I mean it is okay to have an idea of the future… but you still live NOW and everything you do, be it meaningful or not, you should do because you enjoy it RIGHT NOW. I actually love spending my day teaching myself drawing, sewing, reading, studying, diving deep. And its so much more fun if you are fully present. Get my drift?

There was a time when i didn’t know what I loved at all. Now I know a few things. This is great. Excuse me, I’m off reading ❤

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P.S.: Just realized how divinely things turn out when you don’t plan. Just floating. Peace xx

My comfort zone

_1250066Let me introduce you to my current comfort zone : my life. And you know what’s about to happen? Growth. Because whats happening right know is getting me nowhere and this has to and will be changed (now).

More focus. On my “worldly” goals and, above all, my spiritual ones. I know I could get everything I want (doesn’t have to be materialistic but involves life qualities such as the feeling of freedom and abundance and unconditional love) within like 10 days IF I ONLY STARTED! Ok, end of speech.

Friday, with a touch of spontaneity, I took the coach and train to my old hometown and visited Anna. She thought a lot of things changed and the distance may be a barrier for us BUT OF COURSE (and luckily) we just vibed so strong together again, felt the love and talked about feelings, goals, thoughts etc. I am so grateful for our connection. Just to be understood. And to have the same idea of what life really means. We went to Bora Bora a.k.a the lake Müritz and went swimming just about the same time that the sun set. “Looks good!” she joked as I tried to heave myself unto the  bathing jetty, which was quite high. “SO take a picture!!” I screamed back before we were bursting with laughter, me still pressing my body on that landing, not able to push it up fully 😀

An honest, authentic, funny, relaxing, spontaneous, yummy, super warm, summery weekend filled with love. So grateful 🙂

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Bae, our car and I after one of our most adventurous days so far. Eating unbelievably tasty vegan selfmade pizza and fruits, pancakes and what else – watching the atlantic ocean by night.

 

What I am seeking (Goals)

moonsI’ve been thinking and I’ve been not thinking. What I found out is the actual, actually obvious unimportance of everything materialistic. This sounds quite logical and I guess nearly everybody would agree. But only until we forget… as long as all is well and you just live in your cozy little matrix world, we make it our game to gain. Which is alright… this whole human experience is a game with the bonus to be allowed to create your own rules. What I want to say is that from the moment on you realize how fragile all of this stuff, this whole world is, this worldly stuff looses all importance. Just look how easily one can get dependent and forget about true values like self love, self worth, gratitude, being present, listening to oneself, knowledge of self, doing what you love etc. And yet these things build the fundament of any enjoyable relationship – be it with friends, partners, nature, food, family, life – and therefore are so very important to build up! I myself want to be able to fully love other beings and fully dive into life with its countless magical wonders… I want to be able to enjoy and let go and understand those around me. I want to be all there. Truly and unapologetically me. Being and spreading love and positivity.

Let’s continue becoming a magician again 🙂

Is fear stopping you?

it certainly would, if I wouldn’t stop it from doing so first.I can get really nervous before doing something that I can’t completely control in terms of “what will happen/how will it be/can I do this/…” This happens the most when I am about to try something new. Music classes, group events, or – most frequent – sports. Whilst writing this I kinda realize that it could just be appointments in general which stress me out… mh. Anyways, I’ve always been a sporty kid. Not always by choice, but it played a huge role in my life all along. Strangely, it happens that I am super nervous before a training… even if I know what to expect! But it’s just the mind which tells me “Argh, you must plan, you have to schedule that and then you’re not even sure what will happen – whereas at home (aka comfort zone) everythings so safe and relaxed!”

_1290658Same thing today when Lotte asked me to come along to her frisbee class tonight. Whuat, today?? I was afraid of the circumstances… concerned about if I felt good enough, the weather conditions, my timing… however, I went. And it was great. Exhaustingly great and fricking cold.

_1290654 Not that it was simply freezing, it started to rain and then soft hail, wich really hurt our frozen hands! But we continued, dried a little, got soaked by the rain again and finally ended the training with contentment happiness! I definitely learned (once again)that I can approach new things more relaxed and laid back, because everything will work out fine 🙂

_1290723It’s a while ago that I felt SUCH GRATITUDE for my home and a hot shower, wow! I know guys, it’s uncomfortable to admit, but the comfort zone is so much cozier after leaving it (and then coming back) 🙂 Next we watched Game of Thrones and now I am super done, in a positive way! Looking forward to being productive tomorrow! Night! ❤

It takes courage to do the first action, everything that follows is your reward! The universe takes care of everything and gives you all that is good – if you only take the first step!