you can’t imagine how tired I am right now. Or maybe you can. I definitely shouldn’t be blogging and editing pictures right now but rather have a sower, prepare my lunch and go to sleep. Tomorrow is my first fitting of all the pieces we’ve sown to date in uni, and I need to make final completions on one piece. But anyway, I am well prepared for the next day most nights and tonight I feel like just not thinking about tomorrow.
What I want to save here, on my blog, today, is how grateful, honestly thankful I am for my studies. No matter how stressful it can get, I am happy to be at a place that stimulates my spirit to be active and my mind to get creative. It can be a daily struggly but ultimately I am glad to do what I am doing. And also to be surrounded by a fair amount of kind, lovely, cooperative and funny people! This way I almost don’t mind spending 9 to 10 hours a day in Uni, as it is mostly practical and easy-going 🙂
Let me introduce you to my current comfort zone : my life. And you know what’s about to happen? Growth. Because whats happening right know is getting me nowhere and this has to and will be changed (now).
More focus. On my “worldly” goals and, above all, my spiritual ones. I know I could get everything I want (doesn’t have to be materialistic but involves life qualities such as the feeling of freedom and abundance and unconditional love) within like 10 days IF I ONLY STARTED! Ok, end of speech.
Friday, with a touch of spontaneity, I took the coach and train to my old hometown and visited Anna. She thought a lot of things changed and the distance may be a barrier for us BUT OF COURSE (and luckily) we just vibed so strong together again, felt the love and talked about feelings, goals, thoughts etc. I am so grateful for our connection. Just to be understood. And to have the same idea of what life really means. We went to Bora Bora a.k.a the lake Müritz and went swimming just about the same time that the sun set. “Looks good!” she joked as I tried to heave myself unto the bathing jetty, which was quite high. “SO take a picture!!” I screamed back before we were bursting with laughter, me still pressing my body on that landing, not able to push it up fully 😀
An honest, authentic, funny, relaxing, spontaneous, yummy, super warm, summery weekend filled with love. So grateful 🙂
There is a small line between being in the flow of doing what you love with a free spirit and sliding into a non-inspiring habit. The key is consciousness. Everything we do consciously will always be exciting, adventurous and new. All is unique. Habits can mock boredom. But this is your life, queen and king. This is not boring but pure bliss! Remember what you love doing – and start. Break the habit. Do it with the excitement you had when you first started. Your love is waiting for you ❤
We arrived- finally! 25 hours on the road and ferry, 5 passengers with lots of food and even more baggage. We slept in our sleeping bags in a corner of a hallway on the ferry, which brought us over to Sweden over night 🙂 it’s fresh and both sunny and rainy here, but the air is so crisp and awesome, it’s just fantastic 😀 I’m gonna sleep well tonight, I wish the same to you too ❤
I am going to Berlin tomorrow! There’s a home party on Friday night and the next one at Elsa’s on Saturday! Haven’t had a party marathon for years (it feels like), but I am looking forward to seeing many of my old friends ❤
Today was special. I met up with Lotti at the uni canteen for lunch after I enjoyed it that much yesterday! She’s incredibly busy with her medicine study but still making time to see me which is gorgeous 🙂 Later on, on my way back home, the tram I need didn’t operate due to an accident. Well, shit, I thought, now I had to walk home with that immense bag of Rossmann (drug store) organic goodies… but I decided to enjoy it and so did I ! Walking down the road like a catwalk, innerly dancing to the music I was listening to. Awesome 😀
Back home I got some work done, also made vegan bounty and damson (Bärlauch) pesto (so fricking hot :O )and had dinner with my fam! My stepdad made the most delicious dish… mustard-y lentils and oven-veggies (radishes, kohlrabi and carrots) – I know it sounds weird and uncommon, I was skeptical myself… but gooooosh, I was so surprised and pleased by this meal!! As I sat there I started to get a deep feeling of contentment, happiness… pure gratefulness for the very moment and the people I shared it with… it’s not that often that I experience it this consciously… so great 🙂
And last but not least, after a feeling of stress wanted to sneak in, I meditated, just focusing on being relaxed and mindful, and it was so beautifully intense! I thought my arms were crossed and my hands on my knees, but in fact they were both resting in my lap! Now I am energetically charged again and some things I almost worried about worked out pretty well after that:) Synchronicity came up like a hundred times and now I want to sleep. A fun, relaxed and beautiful weekend lies in front of me… See you later ❤